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so long suckers
Monday, January 21, 2008: 5:33 AM
http://www.emilinapoe.blogspot.com/

this will be my last post here.
From the bottom of my heart impure
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Saturday, January 19, 2008: 7:39 PM



wow...it's sunday.i've loss track of time
anw!ystd was a fulfilling yet tiring day :)
we went to NLB to finish the dumb edward de bono
i found Edgar Allan Poe Full Collection of Poems & Stories.
&...haha!...erm...
only they know what i did. >_<
"hello edgar allan poe fan."
den 2 bras basah for "Art Enemy" or rather "Money-Gobbling-Shop" to buy art stuff
and than the bookstore [where i bought 2 books!^^ Anne Rice 'Violin' & The Exorcist]
for $9.50.it's old but in great condition.
anw,i love old unused books.i want to give them justice...for being a book.
worth reading for it's contents remains a secret between their covers...
woaah..what am i crapping?
we went to SMU[by that time im quite beat from the load im carrying]
the few art works are great.
but other than tt,it's utter NON-sense
lol!esp we tried to find the artwork in the toilet[or so they said...]
& i wanna push open the guys toilet[thinking the exhibition is inside;
when this dude open the door to see me standing infront.
utter rubbish.hey!jeanne!u didnt send me ur pix near the chandelier...can u send me?:D
i want to edit for u...
anw,the picture below[the 3 gothic pictures of me...] lol
it's lame...bt,the first pix is the first time i edited.
& than, faeezah saw it,& she said she want to edit for me.
so the one with the red cross at the hemns of the skirt is by her...
i find that the cross is gorgeous,but than...maybe a cross is not a gr8 ides[i prefer an inverted one,but NO.it's an insult to Christians,& i respect that]
so i color back the dress black.
now AJ said she want to help me edit some more...
wo0O...so i tell her,we'll edit some pictures & pass it around
edit & edit & edit till the point where u cant edit anymore ^^
arghhhhhh...*stretches*
im still tired.so much to touch-up on my basic drawing book -_-"
mr tan class drawing untterly suck,but it's a challenge :)
From the bottom of my heart impure
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: 4:41 AM



im so tired to the bones.shall update tmr when genie send me more pictures...


From the bottom of my heart impure
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Friday, January 18, 2008: 4:35 AM
picture post*

my arms can drop off if i do anymore drawing
but nevertheless,i find it quite effective


Edgar Allan Poe-In Youth I Have Known One

_How often we forget all time, when lone
Admiring Nature's universal throne;
Her woods--her wilds--her mountains--the intense
Reply of Hers to Our intelligence!_


I. In youth I have known one with whom the Earth
In secret communing held--as he with it,
In daylight, and in beauty, from his birth:
Whose fervid, flickering torch of life was lit
From the sun and stars, whence he had drawn forth
A passionate light such for his spirit was fit--
And yet that spirit knew--not in the hour
Of its own fervor--what had o'er it power.

II. Perhaps it may be that my mind is wrought
To a ferver [1] by the moonbeam that hangs o'er,
But I will half believe that wild light fraught
With more of sovereignty than ancient lore
Hath ever told--or is it of a thought
The unembodied essence, and no more
That with a quickening spell doth o'er us pass
As dew of the night-time, o'er the summer grass?

III. Doth o'er us pass, when, as th' expanding eye
To the loved object--so the tear to the lid
Will start, which lately slept in apathy?
And yet it need not be--(that object) hid
From us in life--but common--which doth lie
Each hour before us--but then only bid
With a strange sound, as of a harp-string broken
T' awake us--'Tis a symbol and a token--

IV. Of what in other worlds shall be--and given
In beauty by our God, to those alone
Who otherwise would fall from life and Heaven
Drawn by their heart's passion, and that tone,
That high tone of the spirit which hath striven
Though not with Faith--with godliness--whose throne
With desperate energy 't hath beaten down;
Wearing its own deep feeling as a crown.

[Footnote 1: Query "fervor"?--Ed.]
From the bottom of my heart impure
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Wednesday, January 16, 2008: 4:08 AM

*edited by emilina! XD lol...
looked unprofessionally photoshop-ped though... -_-
still have much to learn...
look ok from far but will improve on it next time
cz my eyes feels so sore now... *_*
shall not say the venue of which i took this picture. :)
[if u want to know than u should ask ^^ i will answer]




anw,shall start reading Anne Rice Blackwood Manor & the Visual Thinking book[such a bore]
cant wait for spaghetti tmr.no fish n chips or chicken cutlet.very oily :X urghh...
i was waiting for him to say it & he did!i drove him into telling me the truth instead of the cold shoulder that i don't think i deserve.the truth doesnt hurt that bad after all and when i saw the girl at school just now,i feel stronger.her attitude as she walked,well actually she stomped,by me,makes me look up to her & make me stronger than ever.WOW!

From the bottom of my heart impure
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eat back your words
Tuesday, January 15, 2008: 5:16 AM

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ugly me ugly everyone
Monday, January 14, 2008: 5:38 PM
i was half awake because of the argueement i heard in the living room between my mum n my sis.in my half-conscience i could still feel hurt at every word they threw to each other.but who do u think i side?

my sis.

bcz i feel that my parents are bullshitters.
they make me sick sometimes.
have i got the right to say that?
well i think yeah,because i've got the right to think
i grabbed my pillow & covered my ears out from the living hell
From the bottom of my heart impure
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zombie
: 4:43 AM
though after all the junk food i have yesterday,nothing seems to change.i could still feel the ribcage on my chest.but couldnt hear my heart beat.since it went away like you dissipating in thin air.


*anw,i've got GREAT news!!!i found where they sells The Umbrella Academy comic books by Gerard Way!!!it's at the comic shop where i went to seek justice for poor dusty Nee chee...*
*i want to hit myself for mumbling nonsense like "Osama have kidney failure" or "Osama owned an oil refinery & he's rich" or "I like Barrack Obama better".what's wrong with all my 'O-ama' today in Hist Of western art?im declared a lunatic.
From the bottom of my heart impure
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disappear now but come back later??
Sunday, January 13, 2008: 4:01 AM
urghhh...
im living a slob life...
a big fat loser's life...
wanna know what a big fat loser's life is like?
today is junk food day.
3 epok epok & a bottle of peach tea for breakfast.McSpicy meal for lunch & one of my bro's happy meal's nugget.Lays Sour Onion potato chips & more peach tea.
fried mee & fried fishballs which i just ate...

but nevertheless...i had fun playing monoploy with my cousin that came to my house.
and...i dunno.
drown myself in this starch and oil

anw...it's official.im gonna stuff myself with more sugar syrup tt i get fm Macdonalds tmr morning before sch.
yeah school start & im jumping up & down coz im a loser.
it's 9am till 2.50pm.
anw,back to hotcakes syrup,yeah.i got $0.
i dun expect any sympathy or anyone to give me food;coz i dun feel like eating.
i think today's starch is enough to last till tomorrow.haha.
anywayyy...i got to beg for this woman for her Popular card when i realised i had not enough money to pay for my $4.85 sketchbook.
art had always got me into trouble somehow,from almost being kicked out of the National Library to now-begging.
but i hope art will do me justice in the future.
damn everything.

now get lost...
From the bottom of my heart impure
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that girl in pajamas.
--emilina allan poe
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and more I admire
thy distant fire,
than that colder,
lowly light...

Deathwish.
become an astronaut
visit miriam at Germany
migrate
live life live
breath in out
nice grave with manicured grass
heaven.

screams/howls/
shrieks/screeches.


memories resurfaced.

The Necropolis
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