The Roseblade--my life's full of thorns,bt with together,we managed thru
Monday, July 31, 2006: 4:08 AM
woahh...
kissed my $8.50 go0dbyee!...
bought "Twist",the Canada teen mag...coz inside,ther's a MCR poster...
think it's worth it?...
hmm...alrite ah.coz da mag kinda entertaining to read...
& i get e damn poster!...
urghh!...
i cant seem 2 dwld da pix i haf in my fone...
it's da pix i took fm our trb book...
it's all my 'art work' in ther...
draw a lot o stuff...
gruesome...& pretty...
anw,im happy i gt 29 4 my oral!...wee!...
bt im still sad now.da last entry i was depressed.
siao!~...
coz...i still hasnt clear my mistake o da past.
i dun even noe hu if i treat tiz guy as a fren or a foe...
hmm...arghh!...it's so frustrating...
wanna b free as a bird durin lower sec..
haa...
kissed my $8.50 go0dbyee!...
bought "Twist",the Canada teen mag...coz inside,ther's a MCR poster...
think it's worth it?...
hmm...alrite ah.coz da mag kinda entertaining to read...
& i get e damn poster!...
urghh!...
i cant seem 2 dwld da pix i haf in my fone...
it's da pix i took fm our trb book...
it's all my 'art work' in ther...
draw a lot o stuff...
gruesome...& pretty...
anw,im happy i gt 29 4 my oral!...wee!...
bt im still sad now.da last entry i was depressed.
siao!~...
coz...i still hasnt clear my mistake o da past.
i dun even noe hu if i treat tiz guy as a fren or a foe...
hmm...arghh!...it's so frustrating...
wanna b free as a bird durin lower sec..
haa...
From the bottom of my heart impure
falling,im fallin'...
Wednesday, July 26, 2006: 3:46 AM
& sum pix o my class!...4G [eugene is NOT digging for gold,he scratchin'-in case u all gt it wrong]
From the bottom of my heart impure
NOTHING ELSE MATTERS
Monday, July 24, 2006: 2:16 AM
wee!...
well,im nt tt happy anw...
jz tt i goin 2 start on my final art piece already!...
tmr i can paint liaow!...
wakakaa...
& tmr we visiting da art exhibition!...
cant wait 2 see & get inspirations ther!...
ms ng sae ther da standard veh high...
i felt lucky 2 haf ms ng,coz my fren fm punggol sec nd 2 do everythin on theri own
n ther teacher neh bring em out b4...
bt sumtyms we take things 4 granted...
...i LOVE ms ng!...
im doin tiz veh BIG canvas...+ wire sculpture...n i'll buy roses,dry & paint them to stick on my canvas...lyk veh classic + ancient way...
sigh...i can jz picture it in my mind...
well,if it's done,im gonna take a pix o my masterrpiecee in every angle imaginable. @_@
da pix(down) is my topic 4 my art...
From the bottom of my heart impure
I'M NOT OKAY!
Saturday, July 22, 2006: 11:40 PM
had a quarrell w sis.
sux.
i wanna studie in living ro0m,while watchin da x-men again[coz she's playin it]
den she tell me 2 go in n study.
wdh?...i tell her i DUN WAN study inside
kept pesterin me.i ignored.
in e end i went in,nt 2 study,bt now,im playin,& blastin' da songs right into my ears...
sway me to sleep...
sux.
i wanna studie in living ro0m,while watchin da x-men again[coz she's playin it]
den she tell me 2 go in n study.
wdh?...i tell her i DUN WAN study inside
kept pesterin me.i ignored.
in e end i went in,nt 2 study,bt now,im playin,& blastin' da songs right into my ears...
sway me to sleep...
From the bottom of my heart impure
e Lucky 2's!
Friday, July 21, 2006: 1:43 AM
SIGH!....wad a dae!...
haf fun takin' photos around...
& i think i did GR8 4 my eng oral prelim!...
weee!....
didnt c shahira 2dae...& pInHaO
haf fun l0okin' thru da pix...
[[if u wan,tag my board & i'll send u]]
From the bottom of my heart impure
th3 damned:::th3 thr3es & e Cr0wds...
: 1:27 AM
4G-kICk`asS!
wee!...
forever friends...even thou we'll go seperate ways one dae...
mr lee suckin' in his tummy...wahahaa...
From the bottom of my heart impure
run to the hills,run for ur lifee!...--th3 F0urS
: 1:09 AM
ms yeow-muack- n genemal duwi n me...ex sch band members & hussin
<--hakim,me,faisal,far!candid photo!
moi darliings pretty far uma...
w danesh & russell,gr8 guys 2 b around with
hamidah sab n shah...will rmb u guys
as gr8 friendssigh...once my friend,always my friend...im sry 4 all da things i've done.[h0pe u noe hu im referin' to0]
From the bottom of my heart impure
release the beast in me
Thursday, July 20, 2006: 2:36 AM
ahhh!...
2dae i dunno wad happen 2 me...aft recess[sumthin' happen wen i lining up 4 nasi lemak],
i bcame retarded...
1st,laughin non stop w joey n jia hwei durin eng class...
den i wanna call mr lee,bt i call "Ben Lee....eh?!Mr Lee!!" +_="
uma laughin lyk crazy...
den i tell jairus tt he's too tall n i cant c da board...
...den he took out e maths txtbk fm under his butt!
laughin' again...
goin' 4 NSP ltr...gonna finish my maths[hope mrs y0ga ther,wanna ask her teach me geometry-i suck @ it] den colorin my art layout 4 mrs fernandiez on mondae...
ms ng sae she gonna let us start paintin' on mon liaow.
~scared~!
<3> 4g kick-ass!!!
From the bottom of my heart impure
never ending nitemare...
Tuesday, July 18, 2006: 12:57 AM
FELT DEPRESSED NOW...
& i dunno wad's da reason 4 my depression...
i haf everthin'....bt im still unhappy...
perspiring now...
sang out loud...jumpin' around...almost cracked my neck fm headbang...
hair's a mess...out of breath...
told uma i felt suffocated...i mean my life...& i still dunno y i felt suffocated...
hell...
ltr haf nite studie...wanna go...
2nite haf csi & criminal minds...
i lyk watchin' it...
gt 1 episode is da serial killer was influenced by metallica songs...
haa
s0 does it meant tt i might kill sumbody too???
WDH IM talkin'!!!???
im nuts
ohh...for racial harmony dae...
lyk many ppl askin' me wad i wearin...
i myself nt tt sure...although i haf sum options...
From the bottom of my heart impure
i would go down with my friends!yea-aahh!...
Sunday, July 16, 2006: 3:03 AM
<--da sky rite outside my window...taken on tues b4 i slept...was exhausted.
ahhh!!...
wad a dae!...went 2 pasir ris beach w uma far daryl n ashton[dunno how 2 spell his name] & his ger...
sabo each other inside water...
den saw singapore idol shhoting 4 eir video-clip i think...
hav jonathan hady n jesmine onli...
jesmine waved @ us...
far was excited 2 see hady...
haf 2 agree tt he lo0k cute in da dark pink shirt w pink tie...
neh get 2 take pix[far was sad]...coz ey in da middle o da shooting...
glad tt we gave uma a good 16teen bthdae tt she wud rmb 4ever...
cant wait 4 far 2 print da pix...
goin 2 TM...inside da bus
From the bottom of my heart impure
FeveRish TERR0R!!!...
Saturday, July 15, 2006: 7:50 PM
tmr uma's bthdae...
2dae plan 2 g0 pasir ris beach...
dunno whether e others confirm or nt...
sighh...
saturdae is gone lyk da dry leaves swept by the breeze...
watched da x-me last stand[pirated dvd]...
...ate a lot...studie onli little...damn!...
still haf art final layout 2 colour...cant delay anymore...
gotta start on my canvas...
den my maths shearing...damn shearing...
& maths ST tmr!...based on mid-yr paper & frequency...
damned!... & i sux @ probability coz i didnt illy didnt listen[no,it jz cant get in2 my head]
around 100+ dae's 2 1st written paper...wdh m i waitin'?...
i h0pe da nite-studie can help me...
2dae plan 2 g0 pasir ris beach...
dunno whether e others confirm or nt...
sighh...
saturdae is gone lyk da dry leaves swept by the breeze...
watched da x-me last stand[pirated dvd]...
...ate a lot...studie onli little...damn!...
still haf art final layout 2 colour...cant delay anymore...
gotta start on my canvas...
den my maths shearing...damn shearing...
& maths ST tmr!...based on mid-yr paper & frequency...
damned!... & i sux @ probability coz i didnt illy didnt listen[no,it jz cant get in2 my head]
around 100+ dae's 2 1st written paper...wdh m i waitin'?...
i h0pe da nite-studie can help me...
From the bottom of my heart impure
ST0RM!...wash away my fears...
: 1:42 AM
radhiah called!!!...
gosh,it was happy to hear her voicee...
i missed her!...
gt LOTS to tell her...
bt 1st i let her noe i miss her!...told her 2 call me again...
From the bottom of my heart impure
wad's life lyk bleeding on the flo0r?
Thursday, July 13, 2006: 10:20 PM
fuhhh!...e end o a tiring week...
tmr haf mendaki...
sianz!...
jz now in sch,receive da top in Art & Design award + $1o voucher...
didnt expect it!...was reading my malay reading material,den it's "shahidah,4g"...
s0 i g0...heard fm janneth tt da haslinda haziqah & hu sae "eww"...
wadever la...if they tryin' to pick another stupiid fight ey can jz eat shit.
as i wrote in my entry b4...
duhh!...
shahira told me bou joel's attitude towards her.
sigh!dunno wad to sae.i noe joel play go0d,& illy into band & wanna control da section
,bt den...aint it all jz stupid?
i noe he fm laz yr wanna be band major or sumthin...bt...
i felt his ignorant kills him.
tt y he didnt get e post.
r POWER illy impt in band?...to show ur committed?
i dun think so...it's jz wad u feel,u dun nd physical award to sh0w it.
i dun think if i shud b involved...
nvr illy see pinhao 2dae.
felt my w0rld is empty.
a never ending cavern...
From the bottom of my heart impure
the cold water seems to wash my pain away
: 3:15 AM
ran 2.4km 2dae...im s'pose 2 fail,bt mr nazri lemme pass...so it's 18min.
slow huh?...
neh exercise since end o laz yr...
urghh...gt headache now...
st0pid eugene go & read my latest entry[da entry b4 tiz] durin art[@ com lab]...
den steff &linda askin me hu da guy i lyk...
+_="...
slow huh?...
neh exercise since end o laz yr...
urghh...gt headache now...
st0pid eugene go & read my latest entry[da entry b4 tiz] durin art[@ com lab]...
den steff &linda askin me hu da guy i lyk...
+_="...
From the bottom of my heart impure
the sky were lyk the colour of briused flesh
Wednesday, July 12, 2006: 3:40 PM
felt depress yeterdae
nono...my oral was ok...
onli tt i saw tiz 2 irritating[haa...opps] girls fm chij[izzit?blue dress uniform] trying to get pin hao's attention!...
so frus man! urghhh!...
he saw me quite a lot o tyms,bt i dun think he ever,u noe,...aiyaa!...i dunno lah
bt den...aft seeing tt 2 girls,i felt lyk i wanna tell him... ....tt i ilyk him?.... WTF?
haa
oppS!...im gonna b late 4 sch!
nono...my oral was ok...
onli tt i saw tiz 2 irritating[haa...opps] girls fm chij[izzit?blue dress uniform] trying to get pin hao's attention!...
so frus man! urghhh!...
he saw me quite a lot o tyms,bt i dun think he ever,u noe,...aiyaa!...i dunno lah
bt den...aft seeing tt 2 girls,i felt lyk i wanna tell him... ....tt i ilyk him?.... WTF?
haa
oppS!...im gonna b late 4 sch!
From the bottom of my heart impure
im fr0zen...i cant feel anymore...
Tuesday, July 11, 2006: 3:20 AM
urghh...
wad can i sae bou 2dae?...
im really exhausted...
jz goin on9 a while...
gonna sleep ltr den wake up,shower,tv[csi & criminal minds!] den study...till 3am ltr???
& tmr haf my mt o-lvl oral...
im hanging on to the cliff...
a little more to make it...
i muz fight till e end...
i'll reach for the myriads of stars in the omnious celestial...
wdf im tokin' bou?
im nervous for tmr...
sigh!
h0pe da topic easy...
From the bottom of my heart impure
PH-Gerard
Monday, July 10, 2006: 3:27 AM
From the bottom of my heart impure
that girl in pajamas.
--emilina allan poe
and more I admire
thy distant fire,
than that colder,
lowly light...
and more I admire
thy distant fire,
than that colder,
lowly light...
Deathwish.
become an astronaut
visit miriam at Germany
migrate
live life live
breath in out
nice grave with manicured grass
heaven.
visit miriam at Germany
migrate
live life live
breath in out
nice grave with manicured grass
heaven.
screams/howls/
shrieks/screeches.
shrieks/screeches.
other grabsteins
farhaANA-banana!<3
BITCH+shahira<<<3TRB
my Calvin!*SHAsha!<<<3
ili!
Hakim!
sally!*~
sunita!*~
syidah!*~
azimah!*~
NAFA Art Teaching YAHOO! GROUP
anis!!!<3*~
jeanie<3*~
nadiah*~
shehana*~
rachel*~
diana*~
sofiah!
haslinda!
mashitah!
haziqah!
shahirah!
Farhan*PAPA!
Azizi!
Mojozal*faisal!
Sabril!
Hazirah!
Saurah!
Shirah!
Khadijah!
Haziqah!
Amalina!
Roliah!
Erdiah!
Syed!
Hasmidah!
Atiqah!
Sufyan!-shuqun
Nora!-zss
BITCH+shahira<<<3TRB
my Calvin!*SHAsha!<<<3
ili!
Hakim!
sally!*~
sunita!*~
syidah!*~
azimah!*~
NAFA Art Teaching YAHOO! GROUP
anis!!!<3*~
jeanie<3*~
nadiah*~
shehana*~
rachel*~
diana*~
sofiah!
haslinda!
mashitah!
haziqah!
shahirah!
Farhan*PAPA!
Azizi!
Mojozal*faisal!
Sabril!
Hazirah!
Saurah!
Shirah!
Khadijah!
Haziqah!
Amalina!
Roliah!
Erdiah!
Syed!
Hasmidah!
Atiqah!
Sufyan!-shuqun
Nora!-zss
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