Friday, March 30, 2007: 8:47 PM
ystd shashah n amirah came 2 eat @ Pizza hut!...heexx...
made me grin wen i see them!n kept smiling n chuckling bou' Misterrr Junaidi
ahhh....so funnie.e hair la...e singlet la...n e handphone ring tones.
>_<
*ystd the moon was full.shining SO bright as i look out of my window on my bed*
y muz it be so beautiful yet so painful?
argued w my mum bou my lil bro...
he's really damn lazy wen it comes 2 study...
really lose my patience wen i teach him.
i shouted @ him,n he cry
i also went into my room n cry.
feel so frustrated.
summore he tt kind tt go in right ear come out left ear if my mum scold him 4 nt studying
n my mum can still let him watch tv 4 dunno how long.
it was awful.i HATE 2 get angry.
dani kept my head straight.
2dae i teach my bro again,n i haf more control o myself
chatted w uma in msn awhile...miss her alot!
so long since i seen her...hmmm...like ard 18 march???
hope tmr can meet her! ^^
made me grin wen i see them!n kept smiling n chuckling bou' Misterrr Junaidi
ahhh....so funnie.e hair la...e singlet la...n e handphone ring tones.
>_<
*ystd the moon was full.shining SO bright as i look out of my window on my bed*
y muz it be so beautiful yet so painful?
argued w my mum bou my lil bro...
he's really damn lazy wen it comes 2 study...
really lose my patience wen i teach him.
i shouted @ him,n he cry
i also went into my room n cry.
feel so frustrated.
summore he tt kind tt go in right ear come out left ear if my mum scold him 4 nt studying
n my mum can still let him watch tv 4 dunno how long.
it was awful.i HATE 2 get angry.
dani kept my head straight.
2dae i teach my bro again,n i haf more control o myself
chatted w uma in msn awhile...miss her alot!
so long since i seen her...hmmm...like ard 18 march???
hope tmr can meet her! ^^
From the bottom of my heart impure
Wednesday, March 28, 2007: 8:27 PM
awal just called me...my home fone.
cz i put my hp in silent mode,so i neh pick up
den he say "shahidah!...u can throw away ur hp already"
"oh,sorrylaa!i put silent mode"
"busted sia u...tt y u can throw away ur hp alrdy ah"
"yalah yalah!y u call?"
"u can work @ 4 today or not?"
"4...hmm...okla..."
"4 eh?can arh??""can""k,byee"
ystd i felt tt i half-asleep while workin...
i felt so slow.even jocelyn tell me 2 work faster.
i dunnola...e monday n tuesday off illy gets me into dreamland.
ystd gt a lot o preppy cust..."more cheese on pizza""no capsicum""no ice"
n tiz girl change 3 plates..."oh,my soup spill on e plate,can get me new one?"
"oh,i finish my pizza,can get me 7 plates 4 my bthdae cake now?"
n ey made such a BIG commotion about how 2 cut e bthdae cake...
....yeah...im so jealous they got 2 enjoy....
i mean,i enjoyed a lot to durin sec sch...
bt i nvr had e money 2 illy celebrate a friend's bthdae all out...
e only word 4 me is "big NERD" in my class...shahidah always do hwk...
hahaa,bt talk a lot in bio...
im talkin' 2 yana now!hehex...
sighh...yeah,wad she said is true.
past is past.no matter how stupid or how huge or small mistake u made.
u cant change it.
m i now a caterpillar in a cocoon?still afraid to spread m wings...
still hiding in e dark,lookin @ my past...
or my i really a butterfly,ready to soar into e chorus of the skies?
im still thinkin'.
cz i put my hp in silent mode,so i neh pick up
den he say "shahidah!...u can throw away ur hp already"
"oh,sorrylaa!i put silent mode"
"busted sia u...tt y u can throw away ur hp alrdy ah"
"yalah yalah!y u call?"
"u can work @ 4 today or not?"
"4...hmm...okla..."
"4 eh?can arh??""can""k,byee"
ystd i felt tt i half-asleep while workin...
i felt so slow.even jocelyn tell me 2 work faster.
i dunnola...e monday n tuesday off illy gets me into dreamland.
ystd gt a lot o preppy cust..."more cheese on pizza""no capsicum""no ice"
n tiz girl change 3 plates..."oh,my soup spill on e plate,can get me new one?"
"oh,i finish my pizza,can get me 7 plates 4 my bthdae cake now?"
n ey made such a BIG commotion about how 2 cut e bthdae cake...
....yeah...im so jealous they got 2 enjoy....
i mean,i enjoyed a lot to durin sec sch...
bt i nvr had e money 2 illy celebrate a friend's bthdae all out...
e only word 4 me is "big NERD" in my class...shahidah always do hwk...
hahaa,bt talk a lot in bio...
im talkin' 2 yana now!hehex...
sighh...yeah,wad she said is true.
past is past.no matter how stupid or how huge or small mistake u made.
u cant change it.
m i now a caterpillar in a cocoon?still afraid to spread m wings...
still hiding in e dark,lookin @ my past...
or my i really a butterfly,ready to soar into e chorus of the skies?
im still thinkin'.
From the bottom of my heart impure
Tuesday, March 27, 2007: 5:43 AM
*the black tt fogs my mind had dissipate like the cloud of storms...*
im happy,happy,happy....
i went out,n saw e emily shop again...
n they sells emily strange bike![[pix on top]]
n o0h...in strange we trust & unite.
a lot o emilysssss.wo0ho0...bt im e queen of e emilysss la ofcourse
n bought e Silverstein band tee!....n e badge! *_*
alright,im grinning.im jumping out o my window w/ch is on e 13th floor,
bt im OKAY!
From the bottom of my heart impure
Sunday, March 25, 2007: 8:03 PM
sorry for the retardation of my dears.
now,lemme xplain
to u every each o e pix...
to u every each o e pix...
e 1st pix,see e guy sleeping bhind me?
i changed sit w shahira cz i wanna take pix w shashah,den e guy wan 2 fall on shahira's shoulders...
his head drooping dangerously...
she freaked,n sum o e other passengers,lyk shashah said,were snickering...
*chuckles...n e 2nd pix... ???dunno wad happened 2 shahira's face...
3rd is hand signs... e peace,e dig-e-nose,e satan....hur hur hurr...
& ANOTHER retarded pix o my bitches... +_+
e nex pix was taken by me,cz i wanna find a purr-fect shampoo model...
n ther i have it! ^^
lastly,another silly face.my face is a tired-face...n worried-face...
cz i scared late 4 work...hehehex...
rolling back e camera...
meet shahira n shashah @ CP.ate bthdae cake!
chocolate,YUM!n went off 2 ochard,far east.
i saw a lot of H.I.M gears!fell in luvv w it all.
wan giv shashah a eminem/mcr shirt 4 her bthdae,bt cant find...
:( so muc 4 my "wish-granted"
ended up buyin a nightmare b4 christmas pencil case,cum wallet,4 her.
n a jack skellington house key chain 4 dani.^^
life's such a rollercoaster....
life's such a rollercoaster....
it's all about whether u put on ur sit belts,
n hold on to the railing tight enuf tt u wont fall to the ground....
From the bottom of my heart impure
Saturday, March 24, 2007: 7:22 PM
weeeeeee!!!....
2dae im goin out w my 2 dear dear darling...
sha-hira&Shah....heex...
2 celebrate shashah bthdae w/ch is actually ystd...
wahh,she muz haf gotten her converse shoes fm her KFCs!...
*grins*
goin 2 treat her bthdae cake,food,present... ;P
i love H.I.M!
2dae im goin out w my 2 dear dear darling...
sha-hira&Shah....heex...
2 celebrate shashah bthdae w/ch is actually ystd...
wahh,she muz haf gotten her converse shoes fm her KFCs!...
*grins*
goin 2 treat her bthdae cake,food,present... ;P
i love H.I.M!
From the bottom of my heart impure
Friday, March 23, 2007: 6:28 AM
cant keep this tears fm falling...aiyo0!...had a bad day @ home early in e morn jz nw...
lyk fuck...went to work.
do bar.okla...learned a lot o new things...lyk do ice cream n e drinks.
bt i kept having stomach cramps...
arghhh!!!....n ther's e new manager...
n den was @ e bar...wen shashah came!w her friends!
LOVES HER!
she look so cute w her hair tied up so high...
kekeke...
e bthdae girl tmr is sick now...i pray 4 her recovery.:'(((
mayb tmr i surprise her by goin' her hse?...hmm....
i wanna talk 2 her,bt i cant....
our plans always got cancelled,n it sux...
yeah,we plan out our things,but The Creator have e power 2 determined it.
went home...once i reached,i slept.
o0h fuck,tmr is e meeting.
From the bottom of my heart impure
Tuesday, March 20, 2007: 7:01 PM
This is MY lyrics....
copyrighted by Strangerous Sweet 666...
^^
AFTER PUNISHMENT
I lay in this hearse
as my body lowered in the dirt
I could hear them mourning
but I couldn not speak...
As they shoveled the dirt in,
rays of sunlight start to dim.
I lay there calmed but frightened
as i faced the silence darkness alone
The air tighter
harder to breath
my throat closed in
i SCREAMMM...
for when all the people left,
this burst of light blinded me
and i was called upon angels
to weigh my good deads and my sins..
am i a sinner?...AM-I-A-SINNER!?
will i be accepted to eternal paradise?
or be doomed to the Devils' lair?
buring coals
iron whips
tear apart
hurt so much
abandon every hope ye that enter...
**********************************
uhnn....nono,im nt into any devil's play or anythin la!...
i read this book,this band,they want to make a new kind of metal...
cz ther's heavy metal,love metal,black metal...u noe,tt kind of stuff.
bt now,tiz fictional band,wan 2 make a metal called "Ghost Metal"
u noe...writing bou e dead...
sorta giv a try n make my own "no-tune-lyrics"--no,ther's this kinda tune in my head,bt i dun lyk it.
so yeah.it's been a few dyas tt i've nt updated my blog.
1st things first,i went to accompany uma 2 e salon 2 soften her hair.
n den i went out w far,it's been a fuckin' long tym since i've spend tym w her...
went 2 SP 2 cancel my enrolment,cz i alrdy got NAFA...
...yeah.n i haf to meet shahira n shashah tiz sun!...i MISS THEM lyk hell!..
:'((( shashah b'thdae...kekekee...calvin's turning SIX-teeN!...
n on july,we'll haf a double b'thdae bash 4 me n shahira...another outing yet to look forward. ^^
i dropped by PS w far n stevo,n went 2 e emily shop...
gawdddddddddddd
my legs went weak ther,my mouths drooling w all e emily stuffs...
i want to buy e 1:EMILY blanket 2:EMILY bag,4 my art school 3:EMILY shirt 4:EMILY belt 5:EMILY badge n iron-ons 6:EMILY journal 7:EMILY hoody 8:EMILY shoes
8 the lucky number...bt actually my list goes on endlessly...
cant wait 4 my blo0dy pay.........!!!
pff!...i'll be DEAD if i didnt get my pay on tym!
copyrighted by Strangerous Sweet 666...
^^
AFTER PUNISHMENT
I lay in this hearse
as my body lowered in the dirt
I could hear them mourning
but I couldn not speak...
As they shoveled the dirt in,
rays of sunlight start to dim.
I lay there calmed but frightened
as i faced the silence darkness alone
The air tighter
harder to breath
my throat closed in
i SCREAMMM...
for when all the people left,
this burst of light blinded me
and i was called upon angels
to weigh my good deads and my sins..
am i a sinner?...AM-I-A-SINNER!?
will i be accepted to eternal paradise?
or be doomed to the Devils' lair?
buring coals
iron whips
tear apart
hurt so much
abandon every hope ye that enter...
**********************************
uhnn....nono,im nt into any devil's play or anythin la!...
i read this book,this band,they want to make a new kind of metal...
cz ther's heavy metal,love metal,black metal...u noe,tt kind of stuff.
bt now,tiz fictional band,wan 2 make a metal called "Ghost Metal"
u noe...writing bou e dead...
sorta giv a try n make my own "no-tune-lyrics"--no,ther's this kinda tune in my head,bt i dun lyk it.
so yeah.it's been a few dyas tt i've nt updated my blog.
1st things first,i went to accompany uma 2 e salon 2 soften her hair.
n den i went out w far,it's been a fuckin' long tym since i've spend tym w her...
went 2 SP 2 cancel my enrolment,cz i alrdy got NAFA...
...yeah.n i haf to meet shahira n shashah tiz sun!...i MISS THEM lyk hell!..
:'((( shashah b'thdae...kekekee...calvin's turning SIX-teeN!...
n on july,we'll haf a double b'thdae bash 4 me n shahira...another outing yet to look forward. ^^
i dropped by PS w far n stevo,n went 2 e emily shop...
gawdddddddddddd
my legs went weak ther,my mouths drooling w all e emily stuffs...
i want to buy e 1:EMILY blanket 2:EMILY bag,4 my art school 3:EMILY shirt 4:EMILY belt 5:EMILY badge n iron-ons 6:EMILY journal 7:EMILY hoody 8:EMILY shoes
8 the lucky number...bt actually my list goes on endlessly...
cant wait 4 my blo0dy pay.........!!!
pff!...i'll be DEAD if i didnt get my pay on tym!
From the bottom of my heart impure
Saturday, March 17, 2007: 7:51 PM
ystd @ work,made me open up my eyes...
n i luv my colleagues more.
it breaks my heart to c any o them to cry...
it sux.
n awal asked me n azimah,whether we think tt we had work hard or not.
n azimah said "yes"...n he looked @ me.
n i said "i dunno" "ther's no such answer as 'i dunno'" n i said "for me,i noe i haf put in effort,bt 4 e boss,i dunno"
i noe e reason he called me azimah is about tt dae wen we both got scolded by boss.
n darrel cz he broke e glass.
yeahh,n i made a stupid idiotic mistake ystd.
n it frustrated me,cz i noe i cud do it right.
haa...bt wen awal talk 2 me n azimah,our hands r bhind our bac,
n wen awal told us tt 4 tiz whole week,Boh will nt b cumin',i made a "twist" @ e bac o my hand.
haa!lamee...bt wen i think bac,it's hilarious.
n i read tiz book...it's...awesome.i got so many ideas now
hope i can cum up w my own song or sumthin' ^^
n i luv my colleagues more.
it breaks my heart to c any o them to cry...
it sux.
n awal asked me n azimah,whether we think tt we had work hard or not.
n azimah said "yes"...n he looked @ me.
n i said "i dunno" "ther's no such answer as 'i dunno'" n i said "for me,i noe i haf put in effort,bt 4 e boss,i dunno"
i noe e reason he called me azimah is about tt dae wen we both got scolded by boss.
n darrel cz he broke e glass.
yeahh,n i made a stupid idiotic mistake ystd.
n it frustrated me,cz i noe i cud do it right.
haa...bt wen awal talk 2 me n azimah,our hands r bhind our bac,
n wen awal told us tt 4 tiz whole week,Boh will nt b cumin',i made a "twist" @ e bac o my hand.
haa!lamee...bt wen i think bac,it's hilarious.
n i read tiz book...it's...awesome.i got so many ideas now
hope i can cum up w my own song or sumthin' ^^
From the bottom of my heart impure
Friday, March 16, 2007: 8:51 PM
did i tell all of you tt i love my big brother?
i guess...he might failed academically,i mean,he was kicked out o poly...
den he went to NS...aft NS,he worked so hard 2 earned money...
n he went ITE...n work @ e same tym...
n meet my sis-in-law,hu is actually an NUS student...
n he worked so hard now in poly...
he noes he made a mistake o not studying...
bt now,he's tryin hard 2 finish poly w/ch will take 3 yrs...n he's workin' too.
mayb he feels tt he's not a good role model 4 his lil sisters n brother.
bt he is to me...
coz he fetched my sis fm Farrer Park wen my sis is ill on e way home fm sch.
she was vomitting.my dad was workin',so my bro fetched her hm.
n he even checked out e clinic 4 her despite bein' an hr late 4 his night class.
n wen i didnt bring my hse keys,he came on his bike fm work,jz 2 open me e door.
he helped me thru e SP shitty-enrolment...
he does not bury us with gifts...bt he make us noe,tt wen ever we nd help,he's ther.n tt's e most impt gift.
yeah,he's e greatest big brother!
i guess...he might failed academically,i mean,he was kicked out o poly...
den he went to NS...aft NS,he worked so hard 2 earned money...
n he went ITE...n work @ e same tym...
n meet my sis-in-law,hu is actually an NUS student...
n he worked so hard now in poly...
he noes he made a mistake o not studying...
bt now,he's tryin hard 2 finish poly w/ch will take 3 yrs...n he's workin' too.
mayb he feels tt he's not a good role model 4 his lil sisters n brother.
bt he is to me...
coz he fetched my sis fm Farrer Park wen my sis is ill on e way home fm sch.
she was vomitting.my dad was workin',so my bro fetched her hm.
n he even checked out e clinic 4 her despite bein' an hr late 4 his night class.
n wen i didnt bring my hse keys,he came on his bike fm work,jz 2 open me e door.
he helped me thru e SP shitty-enrolment...
he does not bury us with gifts...bt he make us noe,tt wen ever we nd help,he's ther.n tt's e most impt gift.
yeah,he's e greatest big brother!
From the bottom of my heart impure
: 3:27 AM
I GOT TO NAFA!!!!!!!!!
ME AND UMA GOT TO NAFA!!!!!!!!!!!
OHHHH MYY G0DDD....
:DDDDDDD >< *JUMPS! *rolls... *jumping down e 2nd flo0r...
bt im OKAY!
i just came bac fm tiring work 2dae @ 5...
wen my mum sae ther's a letter 4 me....
i was lyk....uhh....is it a letter fm nafa?....
it was a letter fm moe...
ripped it open,n e letters hit me lyk a concrete wall
"i am pleased to inform you tt you haf been successful in your application for the Art Teacher Training Scheme"
straightaway called uma "UMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!i got into NAFA!!!!!!!!!go check ur letterbox NOW!!!"
n hung up...n called shashah... "I GOT INTO NAFA!"
"WAD?!" ....tut....silence...
her hp dunno wad happen...
she called bac.hung up.called shahira.hung up.--argh,shashah alrdy broke e news 2 her--lol
n uma called jz as my feet were 2 stepped into e toilet...
"I GOT IT TOO!!!" *squels together...
...showered...called MS NG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"congrats 2 u both...im so proud of you...u both r goin' 2 b e best art teachers..."
arghhhhhh!!!
kisses to EVERYONE!....
...
...
...
...
...
wee!
...
...
...
...
i got into NAFA!
From the bottom of my heart impure
Wednesday, March 14, 2007: 5:20 AM
okk...now im sending this guy a comment...
e guy i saw @ Mac...
ahh,revenge...kekekee...
tt's me.
n im a troublemaker...
got scolded my boss 2dae...
he scold me n azimah.
lyk BIG FUCK...
he said tt me n azimah nt doin' our work n walkin' ard...
....WALKING AROUND??!!
"eh old hag,sae tt again"i tot in my mind...
i looked @ him right in e eye as he drained on...
im nt fuckin' scared o him...cz last tym,i got scolded worst.
n he said "u noe,i can send both o u home,i guarentee rossa n jocelyn can run tiz place u noe.."
"o0h,wtf...den make me go home den,i wanna see,asshole"
hahahaaa....
yeah yeah...
all i noe is i've tried my best 2dae,n im happy w it.
e guy i saw @ Mac...
ahh,revenge...kekekee...
tt's me.
n im a troublemaker...
got scolded my boss 2dae...
he scold me n azimah.
lyk BIG FUCK...
he said tt me n azimah nt doin' our work n walkin' ard...
....WALKING AROUND??!!
"eh old hag,sae tt again"i tot in my mind...
i looked @ him right in e eye as he drained on...
im nt fuckin' scared o him...cz last tym,i got scolded worst.
n he said "u noe,i can send both o u home,i guarentee rossa n jocelyn can run tiz place u noe.."
"o0h,wtf...den make me go home den,i wanna see,asshole"
hahahaaa....
yeah yeah...
all i noe is i've tried my best 2dae,n im happy w it.
From the bottom of my heart impure
Monday, March 12, 2007: 11:01 PM
so ystd was my NAFA drawing admission test.
it was ok...
i dun wan 2 get my hopes high,cz im afraid i wud b disappointed.
so,yeahh...it's 3 hrs,n we nd 2 finish 2 god-forsaken drawing blocks.
met huda!e gurl tt i met @ e MOE interview,w her fren Niza.
n wen me n uma was in e toilet,tiz gurl talked 2 me,n since she came alone,
she tagged along w me,uma,huda n niza.
ate LJS...!
n yeahh,on e way,i saw e Gaus Haus...
so cross every fingers n toes i have,i wan 2 go NAFA!!!
aft reached hm fm NAFA,lyk ard 4.30pm...
lol.haf muc fun laughin w uma...
went 2 e fam bbq..
ate a lot.talked a lot.laughed a lot.played uno...lol
i was so exhausted @ midnight tt i fell in2 a deep sleep on e way hm in e car.
& once again,life's down e drain...
oh,wth,i dun care...
all i wan is to go 2 NAFA...tt's all.
im lookin 4ward 2 schooling bac...
2 take my mind off everything...
*credits to Fizzie!for taking a CENSORED photo of me...hur hur hurr....
[[darKNewDAY]]*
From the bottom of my heart impure
Saturday, March 10, 2007: 7:22 PM
urghh...tmr is my n uma's NAFA drawing admission test w/ch consisted o 3hrs in 8am...
n den,ard 2.30pm,im goin 2 haf 2 attend their interview...
o0h...im lyk so lookin forward to it...
lol...
bt nvm!2 get in2 NAFA,i'll perservere!!!!
bt yeahh...e drawing test will end @ 11,n mayb...
hopefully,they let us go out...
can walk ard bugisss!....
wee...
n on tue,i gt a family bbq...@ a chalet...
yeahh...tym 2 talkk 2 my cousin,n eat hotdogs...
so i taking 2 days off fm pizza hut!
wo0tss...
ystd nite shift...awal talked 4 so0 long...
-_-"...yeahh,i noe wad he said is impt...
bt ther's lyk a lot o interruption,n he speak so sl0wly...
duhh...im fuckin' bored...
ate my vegetables quitely...
--coz 2dae ey make seafood pizza,n ther's SQUID!yuckk--
{bt it's good though,@ least i ate vegetables,healthy}
lol
i noe 2dae i made sum mistakes...
i almost slept while he talked...
den i saw e clock 11.30pm?...fuck!i nd 2 go home.
n putri too.her last bus was 11.30...hope she can make it!
n talkin' bou e last bus,i dreamt i missed MY last bus!
n wen i went bac 2 PH,no one was ther...
n i cant go home...
den ther's sum ghost chasing me...
hur hur hurr...
oh,wth...
*i bought e purple jacket i wanted*
n den,ard 2.30pm,im goin 2 haf 2 attend their interview...
o0h...im lyk so lookin forward to it...
lol...
bt nvm!2 get in2 NAFA,i'll perservere!!!!
bt yeahh...e drawing test will end @ 11,n mayb...
hopefully,they let us go out...
can walk ard bugisss!....
wee...
n on tue,i gt a family bbq...@ a chalet...
yeahh...tym 2 talkk 2 my cousin,n eat hotdogs...
so i taking 2 days off fm pizza hut!
wo0tss...
ystd nite shift...awal talked 4 so0 long...
-_-"...yeahh,i noe wad he said is impt...
bt ther's lyk a lot o interruption,n he speak so sl0wly...
duhh...im fuckin' bored...
ate my vegetables quitely...
--coz 2dae ey make seafood pizza,n ther's SQUID!yuckk--
{bt it's good though,@ least i ate vegetables,healthy}
lol
i noe 2dae i made sum mistakes...
i almost slept while he talked...
den i saw e clock 11.30pm?...fuck!i nd 2 go home.
n putri too.her last bus was 11.30...hope she can make it!
n talkin' bou e last bus,i dreamt i missed MY last bus!
n wen i went bac 2 PH,no one was ther...
n i cant go home...
den ther's sum ghost chasing me...
hur hur hurr...
oh,wth...
*i bought e purple jacket i wanted*
From the bottom of my heart impure
Friday, March 09, 2007: 6:25 PM
LOL...
apologies for e following pix n icons...
BEWARE!:::mcr-freak//gerard-freak here...
hur hur hur...
got e pix fm myspace::nisa{mcrmy}
got e pix fm myspace::nisa{mcrmy}
From the bottom of my heart impure
Thursday, March 08, 2007: 7:26 PM
FUCK!
i might jz fight w one o my colleague...
bt i DON't want to.
summore we're workin' 2geder.
o0h!wtf!
e 2kg i gained is jz a useless pound o nothing bt LARD.
damn,n im drowning myself in misery,stuffing myself w pizza n fries @ 10.30pm.
im hungry,nvr get 2 eat dinner.
2dae im off.sat n sun i work
From the bottom of my heart impure
Wednesday, March 07, 2007: 7:58 PM
PLEASE LOOK AT THE VIDEO.
YOU'LL KNOW WHY...
YOU'LL KNOW WHY...
From the bottom of my heart impure
: 7:54 PM
From the bottom of my heart impure
: 2:47 AM
well...2dae's ok too.
except 4 in e morn.ther's tiz goon ask me bou sumthin' 4 his fren.
said he wan 2 work ther cz o me.
lyk wtf?...
wont elaborate on tt.
still fuckin' confused...
:(
cool icons arent they?
lol
From the bottom of my heart impure
Tuesday, March 06, 2007: 5:52 PM
When Love And Death Embrace
[Composed by Valo][Lyrics by Valo]
I'm in love with you
And it's crushing my heart
All I want is you
To take me into your arms
When love and death embrace
I love you
And you're crushing my heart
I need you
Please take me into your arms
When love and death embrace
When love and death embrace
When love and death embrace
When love and death embrace
beautiful song...bt...i dunno if i like e lyrics or not...
From the bottom of my heart impure
: 2:37 AM
my mum sae ther's 2 earthquakes 2dae.
can feel in many parts o singapore...
n already 40 ppl died in indonesia...
& im sitting here...warm n comfortable...
while everywhere ppl is mourning.
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i sumtyms wished im a superheroin...
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well,was on9 4 a lil while tiz morn
my com will automatically sign in 2 msn
n friends bombarded me...askin' w/ch course im goin to...
bt i quickly off9.
i cant chat.i nd 2 check my JAE...
so...here goes.i have my 1st choice...
SP...architecture...
bt i got a letter fm NAFA*muack muack* telling me 2 go 4 e admission drawing test.
wish me luck,nafa is still my 1st choice...
im so lucky tt i get more choices den others...
uma gt republic poly...business application...
well,they said republic nt tt good...
oh well... :( hope we both go NAFA :)
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ystd work was relaxing...
only e m0nsterrr--lyk wad rossa describe-- was ther
lol...
his hair s0 ugly-o0ps!
n...i gained 2 kg...
i dunno whether it's an achievement or wad...???
n o0h!ther's a new malay guy workin' too.
i was grabbing my bag cz finish my work
den he stand ther...lo0kin' so uncomfortable in e uniform...
alien 2 e surrounding...lyk me on my 1st dae o work
wahahaa...
so i sae "1st dae keje?"
"err...yup"
"well,i g2g!cya ard nex tym!"
i gt a bruise on my hand...
n my wrist ache fm holding e heavy plates ard...
bt fuck it.i love e ppl ther.except 4 e "Mmo0nsterrrRR"
arrrRR!
From the bottom of my heart impure
Sunday, March 04, 2007: 7:21 PM
ok....
im fuming w white hot hatred now...
it's so shocking to find out wad a big ass jerk e guy i saw @ macdonalds...
he's never gonna hurt my girl w/o getting away by being clawed by me.
i can jz imagine his guffaws...remembering how many girls fall 4 his trap.
it's totally disgusting.
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im fuming w white hot hatred now...
it's so shocking to find out wad a big ass jerk e guy i saw @ macdonalds...
he's never gonna hurt my girl w/o getting away by being clawed by me.
i can jz imagine his guffaws...remembering how many girls fall 4 his trap.
it's totally disgusting.
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and as i stared out a window,be it in e bus or my bedroom window
e songs blasted in my ears were lyk cold water down my parched throat...
calming me with their songs like whispers of hope to me
and as i lay on my bed...
e world still spinning around me
bt it's spinning without me
as i enter my thoughts.
i cant sleep...i kept hearing voices
i will cover my ears with my pillow
bt it wud nt shut...
coz it's e voices of my thoughts.
every thoughts imaginable
my fear,my dreams,& my fantasies
i wud sit straight up,breathing deep
mumble a prayer,n lay bac in bed
n toss n turn 4 minutes turns to hours
before i sleep...uneasily
From the bottom of my heart impure
Saturday, March 03, 2007: 9:50 PM
^wearing a black shirt doesnt mean ur a fucked-up punk^
okok...
y in my life.
i kept on fighting...fight fight fight...keep on fighting
fight 4 survival...
fight 2 achieve
fight 2 make everyone proud
fight 2 prove tt they r wrong about me...
bt wen i fight,ppl ard try 2 bring me down...
n now...i've fallen.again.n i haf tremendous trouble 2 pick myself up now.
e last tym i was lyk tiz,i felt terrible
::: ::: ::: ::: ::: ::: ::: ::: ::: ::: ::: ::: ::: ::: ::: ::: ::: ::: ::: :::
well durin work,shashah was eating @ mac w her mom--rite?
ok,if im nt wrong...
she was waving @ me hastily
signalling sumthin' i dun understand
ystd gt a LOT o customers...
so i cant illy hung ard...
n she msg-ed me...
E SKELETONIC MUSHROOM IS HERE!
LOL
suckin' on e coke...slurppp SLURPPP!
hehh...i cant miss her 4 e world!
d'oh!
mwahahaaa!!!...
yuckK
well,yeah...tt e only thing tt cheered me up ystd
From the bottom of my heart impure
Friday, March 02, 2007: 2:06 AM
I love GEE!!!I HATE CUSTOMERS HU ACT LYK THEY R A BIG FUCK!
well,wont elaborate on it...
e big sentence on top giv u an idea wad had happen alrdy...
im pissed...
illy wanna smack her face w e tray im carrying...
2 shut her mouth AND oso tt i dun nd 2 c her oh-so-smart-face...
nahh...
will try n 4get...
e faces o my wonderful colleagues cheered me up! :)
n o0h!...e tray in w/ch we deliver e food n drinks around smells....strangeee
yuckkK!...
zeema,u gt smell anythin'?
d'oh!...wad kinda qn is tt?...
i try n wipe my tray w e wet cloth bt still smelly...
even ros agreed.
n yeah,ros collect her A-lvl result 2dae!
wo00...wished her e bez!
well,if e call e O's e big-O's...
well,lyk tt e A's muz b pretty ENORMOUS...
lol...
arghh...my shoulder aching...
gonna put on my fangs n sit infrnt o a tv nw... \m/
From the bottom of my heart impure
Thursday, March 01, 2007: 4:01 AM
Nymphetamine is the sixth studio album by Cradle of Filth, released on September 28, 2004, and features the debut of guitarist James Mcilroy, under the pseudonym "Germs Warfare".
Dani Filth explained the title track as referring to "a drug-like addiction to the woman in question, with her insidious vampyre qualities literally bringing her lover back from the brink of the spiritual grave, only to bury him further on the strength of a whim. This is very Edgar Allan Poe in style and leaves one thinking that, despite the character's inner agonies, he is really a welcome submissive who readily enjoys the terrible highs and lows of his relationship with this alluring and filthy, depreciative succubus.
so...there i go...
haaa...nymphetamine...
watch e video if u're nt scared.
& psstt...
I GOT A CALL FM NAFA ASKIN' ME 2 COME 4 E NAFA EXAMINATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WO0HO0!!!
me & UMA!
hur hur hur...now we're up e 2nd/last stage 2 our future...
wee...!
wish me lucks tt im gonna b admitted n bcum an art teacher k?
& bad news...im nt gettin my pay...
i mean,i went 4 e stupid typhoid injection,bt ther's another test.
i cant do it.i muz wait 4 another week.
so im onli geting my pay on e 21 march...
& by den it wud b $300++ la...
good thing though,i get a lot in one shot instead o onli $100+
e 77th street jacket can wait...
if ther's no more stock,den i guess it jz nt my luck.
:)
& i luv workin' ther.
& lastly...yeahh...uma knew bou e guy i saw too...
wad a jackass!fuckin' cheater!
stupid boys!...
& o0hhhh!!!...
ate pizza w calvin...
i noe she doesnt eat if ther's no food @ hm n i noe sumhow she's starving.
so i msg her n tell her i bring sum pizza fm my workplace since she already @ cp lib...
we're lyk hungry ghost @ e 2nd floor...
haa...
im glad i saved myself fm starving
& also sumhow i saved sumonee else fm starving
& tok bou e day...
had a fun tym laughing out LOUD
yeah,n i noe bou e mushroom head w/ch shahira said,
bt i add tiz--SKELETONIC MUSHROOM!
i think she dun nd an umbrella durin rainy days...
e mushroom will act as fine to keep her skeltonic figure fm gettin wet!
ahakz!... ><
ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!
ther i go again!
i take my words on top bac solemnly... -.-
d'ohh!...
Dani Filth explained the title track as referring to "a drug-like addiction to the woman in question, with her insidious vampyre qualities literally bringing her lover back from the brink of the spiritual grave, only to bury him further on the strength of a whim. This is very Edgar Allan Poe in style and leaves one thinking that, despite the character's inner agonies, he is really a welcome submissive who readily enjoys the terrible highs and lows of his relationship with this alluring and filthy, depreciative succubus.
so...there i go...
haaa...nymphetamine...
watch e video if u're nt scared.
& psstt...
I GOT A CALL FM NAFA ASKIN' ME 2 COME 4 E NAFA EXAMINATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WO0HO0!!!
me & UMA!
hur hur hur...now we're up e 2nd/last stage 2 our future...
wee...!
wish me lucks tt im gonna b admitted n bcum an art teacher k?
& bad news...im nt gettin my pay...
i mean,i went 4 e stupid typhoid injection,bt ther's another test.
i cant do it.i muz wait 4 another week.
so im onli geting my pay on e 21 march...
& by den it wud b $300++ la...
good thing though,i get a lot in one shot instead o onli $100+
e 77th street jacket can wait...
if ther's no more stock,den i guess it jz nt my luck.
:)
& i luv workin' ther.
& lastly...yeahh...uma knew bou e guy i saw too...
wad a jackass!fuckin' cheater!
stupid boys!...
& o0hhhh!!!...
ate pizza w calvin...
i noe she doesnt eat if ther's no food @ hm n i noe sumhow she's starving.
so i msg her n tell her i bring sum pizza fm my workplace since she already @ cp lib...
we're lyk hungry ghost @ e 2nd floor...
haa...
im glad i saved myself fm starving
& also sumhow i saved sumonee else fm starving
& tok bou e day...
had a fun tym laughing out LOUD
yeah,n i noe bou e mushroom head w/ch shahira said,
bt i add tiz--SKELETONIC MUSHROOM!
i think she dun nd an umbrella durin rainy days...
e mushroom will act as fine to keep her skeltonic figure fm gettin wet!
ahakz!... ><
ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!
ther i go again!
i take my words on top bac solemnly... -.-
d'ohh!...
From the bottom of my heart impure
that girl in pajamas.
--emilina allan poe
and more I admire
thy distant fire,
than that colder,
lowly light...
and more I admire
thy distant fire,
than that colder,
lowly light...
Deathwish.
become an astronaut
visit miriam at Germany
migrate
live life live
breath in out
nice grave with manicured grass
heaven.
visit miriam at Germany
migrate
live life live
breath in out
nice grave with manicured grass
heaven.
screams/howls/
shrieks/screeches.
shrieks/screeches.
other grabsteins
farhaANA-banana!<3
BITCH+shahira<<<3TRB
my Calvin!*SHAsha!<<<3
ili!
Hakim!
sally!*~
sunita!*~
syidah!*~
azimah!*~
NAFA Art Teaching YAHOO! GROUP
anis!!!<3*~
jeanie<3*~
nadiah*~
shehana*~
rachel*~
diana*~
sofiah!
haslinda!
mashitah!
haziqah!
shahirah!
Farhan*PAPA!
Azizi!
Mojozal*faisal!
Sabril!
Hazirah!
Saurah!
Shirah!
Khadijah!
Haziqah!
Amalina!
Roliah!
Erdiah!
Syed!
Hasmidah!
Atiqah!
Sufyan!-shuqun
Nora!-zss
BITCH+shahira<<<3TRB
my Calvin!*SHAsha!<<<3
ili!
Hakim!
sally!*~
sunita!*~
syidah!*~
azimah!*~
NAFA Art Teaching YAHOO! GROUP
anis!!!<3*~
jeanie<3*~
nadiah*~
shehana*~
rachel*~
diana*~
sofiah!
haslinda!
mashitah!
haziqah!
shahirah!
Farhan*PAPA!
Azizi!
Mojozal*faisal!
Sabril!
Hazirah!
Saurah!
Shirah!
Khadijah!
Haziqah!
Amalina!
Roliah!
Erdiah!
Syed!
Hasmidah!
Atiqah!
Sufyan!-shuqun
Nora!-zss
memories resurfaced.
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