Thursday, May 31, 2007: 8:31 PM
my eyes are still too swollen tt it's too painful to open them up...
i cried,because i dun understand wad's got jocelyn so so mad at us...
all i did was kiddingly said "ee...i dun wan 2 eat e crayfish...it looks scary"
--coz once she said tt it looks lyk a cockroach n i was laughing at it--
so i dun really understand.i really dun...n i need her to make me understand
...or is it wen Boh said tt i need 2 contribute Sat roster,yeah,im pissed.
den jocelyn said nicely 2 me,"shahidah,everyone also got family...we also wan family day..."
n i said "ok...bt jocelyn,this week i really cannot on sat,cz promised gt family bbq"
"tt one nvm,cz we alrdy give u off wad"
"okay!..."
this was e last few minutes b4 her outburst...
i dunno why all this had become too,cz i never bear a grudge on anybody.
i respected her as my supervisor n i listen to her wen she teach me,or scold me 4 my mistakes
and i m not racist or biased towards anyone.
i just dun understand wad was going on.
neither do the others
so wen Boh was askin' us wad was wrong,we dun noe wad to say.
i was crying.cz i was thinking' WHERE THE FUCK HAD I DONE SO WRONG???!!!
i need her 2 tell me.Boh push e table,n e plates fall down n break into pieces
Kamal was just inches from the broken glasses.
n my anger flared so high.those this resolve anything?!
i broke down,n said im sorry if i did anything wrong to offend her.
n wad she said?"u guys can just F off fm me"
yeah,u can ask the rest.
i felt like screaming at her-bcz i wan to know,WHY m i the reason 4 the spark of this?
n she's avoiding us
she just dun want to tell us wad got her so offended n felt like she got no respect as a supervisor
bt b4 i do something even worse,i just grab my bag n ran out.
im so tired my energy drained out from me...
i WANT to settle this.i WANT to straighten things out
bt i know,if once i've straightened things out,i will never return
i cried,because i dun understand wad's got jocelyn so so mad at us...
all i did was kiddingly said "ee...i dun wan 2 eat e crayfish...it looks scary"
--coz once she said tt it looks lyk a cockroach n i was laughing at it--
so i dun really understand.i really dun...n i need her to make me understand
...or is it wen Boh said tt i need 2 contribute Sat roster,yeah,im pissed.
den jocelyn said nicely 2 me,"shahidah,everyone also got family...we also wan family day..."
n i said "ok...bt jocelyn,this week i really cannot on sat,cz promised gt family bbq"
"tt one nvm,cz we alrdy give u off wad"
"okay!..."
this was e last few minutes b4 her outburst...
i dunno why all this had become too,cz i never bear a grudge on anybody.
i respected her as my supervisor n i listen to her wen she teach me,or scold me 4 my mistakes
and i m not racist or biased towards anyone.
i just dun understand wad was going on.
neither do the others
so wen Boh was askin' us wad was wrong,we dun noe wad to say.
i was crying.cz i was thinking' WHERE THE FUCK HAD I DONE SO WRONG???!!!
i need her 2 tell me.Boh push e table,n e plates fall down n break into pieces
Kamal was just inches from the broken glasses.
n my anger flared so high.those this resolve anything?!
i broke down,n said im sorry if i did anything wrong to offend her.
n wad she said?"u guys can just F off fm me"
yeah,u can ask the rest.
i felt like screaming at her-bcz i wan to know,WHY m i the reason 4 the spark of this?
n she's avoiding us
she just dun want to tell us wad got her so offended n felt like she got no respect as a supervisor
bt b4 i do something even worse,i just grab my bag n ran out.
im so tired my energy drained out from me...
i WANT to settle this.i WANT to straighten things out
bt i know,if once i've straightened things out,i will never return
From the bottom of my heart impure
Tuesday, May 29, 2007: 6:18 AM
oh gawd...just posting this video so i wudn't lose it.
it's fm Mayhem...
Freezing Moon
Deathcrush
Dark Funeral-The Secrets Of The Dark ARts
it's fm Mayhem...
Freezing Moon
Deathcrush
Dark Funeral-The Secrets Of The Dark ARts
From the bottom of my heart impure
: 5:47 AM
From First To Last-Emily LIVE
Uploaded by Dark_Emo a song made for me...
????
heex...
yeah!
it's Emily from From First To Last.
From the bottom of my heart impure
Monday, May 28, 2007: 5:59 PM
the ants ate my breakfast...
hmmm....im gonna suck them with my vacuum now!
ReVenge...
thought i saw sumone walking infrnt of me;more likely,a shadow
but there's no one
2dae my parents cumin' bac!
tt 46 hrs o nt seeing my bro ends in a few more hrs...
bt it also a mark of e end of MY holiday...
cz since they go on holiday,i go home ad 6pm...
haa...
so glad i haf Sunita ad work! ^^
heex...
gotta rummage ard e cupboards ard my house 4 food now!
dunno where my sis gone to.
i woke up this morning,n she's gone!
hmmm....im gonna suck them with my vacuum now!
ReVenge...
thought i saw sumone walking infrnt of me;more likely,a shadow
but there's no one
2dae my parents cumin' bac!
tt 46 hrs o nt seeing my bro ends in a few more hrs...
bt it also a mark of e end of MY holiday...
cz since they go on holiday,i go home ad 6pm...
haa...
so glad i haf Sunita ad work! ^^
heex...
gotta rummage ard e cupboards ard my house 4 food now!
dunno where my sis gone to.
i woke up this morning,n she's gone!
From the bottom of my heart impure
Sunday, May 27, 2007: 5:17 AM
the black is back;but it will never fog my mind again...
sry if my new skin n profile is scary...
bt seriously...it just e way i m.
bt seriously...it just e way i m.
ppl look ad me n if they ask me wad music i listen too,they'll b surprised.
n just plainly reply,"u doesnt look fierce"
err...i may nt wear black lipstick or wear an inverted Cross around my neck.
it's all in ur mind...ur thoughts...yeahh...
im so glad i found sumone hu understands wad i meant.
sumone whom i talked to last night. :)
bt still,we do listen to RnB n stuff.
sumtyms u need a break fm hearin all e loud stuff...
finally...i found a guy,with e same feelings as me.
im sorry shashah...if i never try 2 understand ur situation...
:( hey...here i m,prayin 4 ur best.
do ur best ok?pls pls pls...haf confidence.
hobbes always remembers calvin.
just wan let u noe...im here,wen u need my help.
i'll squeeze out every effort to help u.
2 my bitch,heh heh...
congrats 4 getting e highest 4 THREE subjects!
eee....crazzy brainiacc...
ur SO blessed w an incredible brain.
hey....im sorry to okay...
i cancelled our meeting...
:'( i noe u lookin' 4ward 2 it.bt i let u down...
i was feeling depressed...bou shashah's studies...
argghhhHH!!!...i hurt my loved ones..
now,my sis's friends-3 of them- is ad my house...
dunno wad game they playin' w Uno cards...
bt hell!...i didnt noe they can b LOUD.
so here i m.in my room w my door closed.
n ltr,im goin' in my parent's room 2 watch "The Convenant" VCD.
:D
but yeah,they brought a lot o food 2 our house.
so i think i'll find sumthin' 2 munch ltr.
juz now worked fm 11am till 6.to be exact,6.15?
cz i waited 4 e pizza i wan take home[lyk i've said,my parents on hols,so no food ad home.i nd 2 buy my own food]
i gt a msg fm azimah.she tot tt my no. was jocelyn's.
she said she cant work 2dae...
n i msg-ed bac,tt tiz my no.,nt jocelyn's...
n i said "u illy confirm wnna quit?"
n yeah...n stuff...i dunno whether i wan 2 quit...
lyk azimah...we just LOVE e ppl there...as in "our service gang"
haa...bt with fuckin' boss cumin'-OPS!-life's gonna b SO FUCKED UP!
down e drain...down e dirt...wadever...
*as shashah said in her blog,"my mouth had no insurance"*
my mouth got no insurance too.
haaaaa!....
2dae was lucky i dun haf 2 c his face,cz his finger swollen bac.
hee... "our curse had been heard"
so yeahh...i cant MADE UP MY MIND!!!
w/ch make me listen 2 Mayhem "visual agression",where e 1st part,e guy screamed
"ARRRRRGGgHHH!!!..."it illy expressed my frustration n made me wanna scream w him too.
nt havin my mum ard,i learned 2 live so independently,im actually quite enjoying it.
i mean,im proud i can survive!
sometimesi feel tt this is e kind o life i wanna lead.
bt i noe...my mum is still e queen o my heart-though how much i cant understand her.
i've talked enuf.it 15 mins to 9pm.
better start watchin' Convenant...
From the bottom of my heart impure
Saturday, May 26, 2007: 3:53 AM
Chorus Of The Skies-Emily for Dani
Heaven condemns the song i sing
which i presented before the king
i fall down on my knees
crying with pain looking up in the rain
eyes go from red to white
i let a sigh out in the night
the black is back it fogs my mind
another vision yet to find
for me pains a breeze
as i walk this path alone
until the night lurches away
and dark is brought to day
there a black horse and a knight
gleaming in a distance so bright
i rode behind him,
holding on him tight
as we rode along a flooding midnight stream
for now,like fire,i shall rise
in latter days,the healing rain
our voices join to the chorus of the skies
Heaven condemns the song i sing
which i presented before the king
i fall down on my knees
crying with pain looking up in the rain
eyes go from red to white
i let a sigh out in the night
the black is back it fogs my mind
another vision yet to find
for me pains a breeze
as i walk this path alone
until the night lurches away
and dark is brought to day
there a black horse and a knight
gleaming in a distance so bright
i rode behind him,
holding on him tight
as we rode along a flooding midnight stream
for now,like fire,i shall rise
in latter days,the healing rain
our voices join to the chorus of the skies
From the bottom of my heart impure
Friday, May 25, 2007: 6:52 AM
music videos...by EMily!
it's Fuckin' Metallica Week!
fade To Black-Metallica
Enter Sandman-Metallica
Master Of Puppets
Die Die My Darling
and finally...e video w/ch is lost fm me 4 so long...
i finally found it...
finally seem 2 found a piece of myself.
The Unforgiven
it's Fuckin' Metallica Week!
fade To Black-Metallica
Enter Sandman-Metallica
Master Of Puppets
Die Die My Darling
and finally...e video w/ch is lost fm me 4 so long...
i finally found it...
finally seem 2 found a piece of myself.
The Unforgiven
From the bottom of my heart impure
: 6:51 AM
damn!!!this rock e shit outta me too!
METALLICA in The Simpsons!
From the bottom of my heart impure
: 6:41 AM
Spongebob's METALCORE!
lamb of GOD!!!
From the bottom of my heart impure
: 5:36 AM
u can see it in my eyes,there's nothing to say.i lovee you so much
so my parents n my brother is off 4 4 days...
so it's lyk 96 more hrs b4 i get to see my lil brother again...
w/ch is depressing 4 me?....ummm...
cz he's e one tt always bugs me...
n i miss his bugging.n den i'll tickle him.
n in gasping fits o laughter,he will kick n try 2 shout 4 help
n he will kick my stomach or anywhere he can get his legs on me.
den i will hold his legs down...
n he'll lick my hand,till i let go.
n tt's where Wrestlemania starts...
he'll pull my hair.
so yeahh...
i wan 2 quit
cz boss cum bac
n im lyk so stress tt put n rossa goin' off soon.
sumone help me!
n i want PSP!
:D
me dani n abu buying together!
so my parents n my brother is off 4 4 days...
so it's lyk 96 more hrs b4 i get to see my lil brother again...
w/ch is depressing 4 me?....ummm...
cz he's e one tt always bugs me...
n i miss his bugging.n den i'll tickle him.
n in gasping fits o laughter,he will kick n try 2 shout 4 help
n he will kick my stomach or anywhere he can get his legs on me.
den i will hold his legs down...
n he'll lick my hand,till i let go.
n tt's where Wrestlemania starts...
he'll pull my hair.
so yeahh...
i wan 2 quit
cz boss cum bac
n im lyk so stress tt put n rossa goin' off soon.
sumone help me!
n i want PSP!
:D
me dani n abu buying together!
From the bottom of my heart impure
Sunday, May 20, 2007: 7:54 PM
FIRST OF ALL!!!
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST FARHANA!!!
wee wo0...
im havin an off day today coz planned 2 celebrate far's bthdae.
bt arghhh!!!!my mum...
she dun let me go out!lyk fuckkkk....
said everytime off day wan go out
bt wdh??off day wad?den stay @ home lyk a rotten log?
say never spend enuf tym w family?lyk -blah!...
ystd just celebrate my dad's bthdae w my bro n sis-in-law
den everytym go out w family...
im so freakin' bored.yeahh.ystd i DID meet uma.
bt it's only 4 3hrs,den i meet my whole family...
now im so freakin' pissed.
i might as well work 2dae now tt i've known i cant go out!!!...
sometimes i just dunno how my parents way of thought.
n tryin' 2 figure out wad they r thinkin' makes me wan 2 pull my hair out o my scalp n yell n cry @ e top of my lungs.
a fuckin' off day it is today.
im havin an off day today coz planned 2 celebrate far's bthdae.
bt arghhh!!!!my mum...
she dun let me go out!lyk fuckkkk....
said everytime off day wan go out
bt wdh??off day wad?den stay @ home lyk a rotten log?
say never spend enuf tym w family?lyk -blah!...
ystd just celebrate my dad's bthdae w my bro n sis-in-law
den everytym go out w family...
im so freakin' bored.yeahh.ystd i DID meet uma.
bt it's only 4 3hrs,den i meet my whole family...
now im so freakin' pissed.
i might as well work 2dae now tt i've known i cant go out!!!...
sometimes i just dunno how my parents way of thought.
n tryin' 2 figure out wad they r thinkin' makes me wan 2 pull my hair out o my scalp n yell n cry @ e top of my lungs.
a fuckin' off day it is today.
thanks for nothing
to shashah!!!i've submitted all e pix already!
i know u waitin 4 it!im so sorry!cz aft i meet uma,i went out w my family till lyk 9.30pm
n i was on9 4 a little short while b4 my sis was wailing @ me 2 switch off e damn com cz she wan play.
i know u waitin 4 it!im so sorry!cz aft i meet uma,i went out w my family till lyk 9.30pm
n i was on9 4 a little short while b4 my sis was wailing @ me 2 switch off e damn com cz she wan play.
*FUCKING pissed OFF day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate i hate i hate...
my day is DESTROYED
u know bou e allergy i have tt itching lyk mad?
i was half-hoping tt im allergic to e SUN!!!
i was half-hoping tt im allergic to e SUN!!!
den i'll bcum a moonchild!...a vampireSS...
wuuhuuuu!!!
i can only go out @ night...a nocturnal living thing
even if i wan go out in e day,i must use a lot o sunscreen lotion n stuff
wad a gothic thinking!bt i likeeee...
bt too bad,wad i was hoping isnt true.
bt too bad,wad i was hoping isnt true.
From the bottom of my heart impure
Wednesday, May 16, 2007: 7:27 PM
as usual,im s'pose 2 b workin' now...
bt i dunno.i have tiz allergy...
n its ITCHING ME LIKE MADDD!!!
kept scratching here n there...
haa...
so my mum bringing me see doctor 2dae.
will cum work ard 3...?
n i finally watched Spiderman 3!!!
w my sweetheart!
hehehex...
haiss...it's been hard for us.
never see each other for days...
bt finally!....another day together!
:D
bt it's also painful for me...cz it's been so long since i've even seen my OWN friends...
sigh!... :(
anw,went 2 PS n took e 3.50pm show.
wahh...e movie so long.finished @ 6+pm...
bt i haf e GREATEST day!reached home @ 9pm. :P
den e next day went 2 Johor again w my whole family
went Jusko again!weeeeeeeeee!!!.....
shop...den afttt we watch a movie there.
it's a malay movie[i was protesting 2 watch an english movie] called "Sumo-lah!"
acted b afdlin shauki n gurmit singh...e movie more funny den cicakman seriously.
bt den right....[yuck,i always wan 2 puke wen i think o tiz]...
sumone didnt wash their feets or never wash their socks,cz it FUCKIN stinks...
bluekzzzzzzzzz...
yuck!n it cried out "eee!!!bau aper ni busuk giler??!" purposely very loud.
so hu ever's feet it belongs too,will shy away...
ahakz... 
n shashah!!!thx 4 e hug!i really need it
n daryl n karen!u made my day too,4 eating @ Pizza hut!
n also dani.
From the bottom of my heart impure
Monday, May 07, 2007: 12:34 AM
hope this wud work
it's a video o dani's gig...
"She's Insane!"
From the bottom of my heart impure
Sunday, May 06, 2007: 11:58 PM
hey... :P
im s'pose 2 b workin' now.bt i haf to go 2 e Raffles Medical Group @ Raffles Hospital again 4 a test.
called PH a lot o tym,bt neh pick up.msg-ed jocelyn sae i wud b @ work b4 5.
tot e test wud b very long,bt it turned out,finished early.
it's just me n my mum.so we ate e Banquet @ e hospital there...
i bought e fish n chips 4 lyk $7.30...
it was so filling!e fish fillet is almost e length o my arm!
my mum ate e mee wok.
den coz my western food plate includes mayonise chilli sause n salad...
den e cleaner hu cleans away e empty plates is actually a gay...a malay...quite old...mayb ard late 40s???
den he[or shud i sae 'she'] came n talk 2 me "eheh...y u never eat e salad???young muz eat vegetable one u noe...good 4 ur complexion...4 us old ppl eat vegetables no use alrdy u noe..."blablabla...
he[she] was funny...i just smile as i stared @ my plate.
if my stomach wasnt on e verge o bursting,i wud eat e salad.cz i lyk salad...
bt if i force another bite,i might just puke on his[her] apron...
so ther goes...
dropped by PS cz i need 2 buy socks! >_< n also...another emily stuff.
4get bou e MCR belt i wanted.cz i bought an emily belt!
wuuhuu!...
now im on9 4 a lil while only.
cant wait 4 FRiday!!!tot mayb goin' out 2 watch Spiderman3...
hmm...im lyk so jealous tt most o my frens watched alrdy.. :((
and den tiz sat,my whole fam planned 2 go Johor shopping @ Jusko AGAIN!
*doin' cartwheels...*
ahhh...i just cant wait 4 friday 2 cum!
sumthin' 2 look 4ward 2 durin' e dull zombie workin' days...
now i dun feel lyk goin 2 work.
e laziness gets to me.
gahhh!!!...
den while @ PS,dani was also ther w his frends havin' lunch b4 goin' bac sch...
n he msg me wanna meet my mum awhile...
:) i was surprised la,tot he kidding.bt he illy came!
n he salam my mummy..heeexxx
:D im lyk smiling lyk mad...i love him
n dearest shahira n shashah!...
muuaaahhh!...a good luck kiss fm me.
n uma n far...gahhh!...i wanna slack w u guys again.
mayb me n uma can go on a...haa...will msg her soon :P
From the bottom of my heart impure
: 3:55 AM
no...dun get me wrong
i dun particularly listen 2 Mayhem or Emperor...
bt the history of their life kinda fascinates/gore/freaks me...
it's...MANIACAL.
Early years (1983-1990)
Mayhem was founded in 1983 by guitarist/vocalist Euronymous (Øystein Aarseth - then 'Destructor'), bassist Necrobutcher (Jørn Stubberud) and drummer Manheim (Kjetil Manheim). Euronymous concentrated solely on guitar following the hiring of vocalist Messiah (Eirik Nordheim) in 1985, with Maniac (Sven Erik Kristiansen) replacing Messiah. The band went on to record their third release, following two demos, Deathcrush, with Euronymous's newly formed label 'Posercorpse Music'.
By the summer of 1988 both Manheim and Maniac had left the band; Manheim, tired of 'the life', tried to get a 'real' job, Maniac, following a failed suicide attempt was confined to a mental institution. After two brief replacements, their positions were filled by Swede Dead (Per Yngve Ohlin, previously of Morbid), and scene drummer Hellhammer (Jan Axel Blomberg). At this point the all ready hazy history becomes even more muddled. Much of what is generally considered 'fact' has been either proven to be or is suspected to be rumour, legend and myth. The facts are few indeed.
Dead, as suggested by his stage name, was melancholic by nature and fascinated by death, decay, and darkness. He left even Euronymous, who by all accounts despised him, expressing concern for his mental stability. Despite this he was well liked on the scene, though regarded as a little naïve.
According to Bard Eithun "He (Dead) wasn't a guy you could know very well. I think even the other guys in Mayhem didn't know him very well. He was hard to get close to. I met him two weeks before he died. I'd met him maybe six to eight times, all in all. He had lots of weird ideas. I remember Aarseth was talking about him and said he did not have any humour. He did, but it was very obscure. Honestly, I don't think he was enjoying living in this world."
Dead had, over time, carefully cultivated a notoriety for strange behaviour; once burying a set of clothes underground for weeks so that he could later wear the decaying rags on stage. He had kept a rotting raven in a plastic bag so better to "inhale the scent of death" before going on stage. Such morbid fascinations and antics further developed Mayhem's progressing musical atmosphere, and by this point the band's lyrics had moved increasingly toward Satanism, darkness, depression and evil. A focal point of gigs at this time was the planting of pigs' heads on stakes, center stage, and Dead cutting himself with a knife.
By April 1991, Dead was dead, aged 22, having suffered a self-inflicted shotgun wound to the head and several lacerations to the wrists, inflicted by a knife he had bought that day. Dead committed suicide in a house he was sharing in Kråkstad with the other members of the band, and left a note asking that they "Excuse all the blood."
"He (Dead) didn't see himself as human; he saw himself as a creature from another world. He said he had many visions that his blood has frozen in his veins, that he was dead. That is the reason he took that name. He knew he would die.."
Euronymous was first to discover the body, and took a series of photographs of the corpse, one of which was later stolen and used as cover art for the bootleg album Dawn of the Black Hearts.
so...this is e cover o e Dawn of the Black Hearts...
it freaks me!...tt's e REAL picture o Dead dead.
these guys are really mad...
i dun particularly listen 2 Mayhem or Emperor...
bt the history of their life kinda fascinates/gore/freaks me...
it's...MANIACAL.
Early years (1983-1990)
Mayhem was founded in 1983 by guitarist/vocalist Euronymous (Øystein Aarseth - then 'Destructor'), bassist Necrobutcher (Jørn Stubberud) and drummer Manheim (Kjetil Manheim). Euronymous concentrated solely on guitar following the hiring of vocalist Messiah (Eirik Nordheim) in 1985, with Maniac (Sven Erik Kristiansen) replacing Messiah. The band went on to record their third release, following two demos, Deathcrush, with Euronymous's newly formed label 'Posercorpse Music'.
By the summer of 1988 both Manheim and Maniac had left the band; Manheim, tired of 'the life', tried to get a 'real' job, Maniac, following a failed suicide attempt was confined to a mental institution. After two brief replacements, their positions were filled by Swede Dead (Per Yngve Ohlin, previously of Morbid), and scene drummer Hellhammer (Jan Axel Blomberg). At this point the all ready hazy history becomes even more muddled. Much of what is generally considered 'fact' has been either proven to be or is suspected to be rumour, legend and myth. The facts are few indeed.
Dead, as suggested by his stage name, was melancholic by nature and fascinated by death, decay, and darkness. He left even Euronymous, who by all accounts despised him, expressing concern for his mental stability. Despite this he was well liked on the scene, though regarded as a little naïve.
According to Bard Eithun "He (Dead) wasn't a guy you could know very well. I think even the other guys in Mayhem didn't know him very well. He was hard to get close to. I met him two weeks before he died. I'd met him maybe six to eight times, all in all. He had lots of weird ideas. I remember Aarseth was talking about him and said he did not have any humour. He did, but it was very obscure. Honestly, I don't think he was enjoying living in this world."
Dead had, over time, carefully cultivated a notoriety for strange behaviour; once burying a set of clothes underground for weeks so that he could later wear the decaying rags on stage. He had kept a rotting raven in a plastic bag so better to "inhale the scent of death" before going on stage. Such morbid fascinations and antics further developed Mayhem's progressing musical atmosphere, and by this point the band's lyrics had moved increasingly toward Satanism, darkness, depression and evil. A focal point of gigs at this time was the planting of pigs' heads on stakes, center stage, and Dead cutting himself with a knife.
By April 1991, Dead was dead, aged 22, having suffered a self-inflicted shotgun wound to the head and several lacerations to the wrists, inflicted by a knife he had bought that day. Dead committed suicide in a house he was sharing in Kråkstad with the other members of the band, and left a note asking that they "Excuse all the blood."
"He (Dead) didn't see himself as human; he saw himself as a creature from another world. He said he had many visions that his blood has frozen in his veins, that he was dead. That is the reason he took that name. He knew he would die.."
Euronymous was first to discover the body, and took a series of photographs of the corpse, one of which was later stolen and used as cover art for the bootleg album Dawn of the Black Hearts.
so...this is e cover o e Dawn of the Black Hearts...
it freaks me!...tt's e REAL picture o Dead dead.
these guys are really mad...
From the bottom of my heart impure
: 2:28 AM
first words...
shashah,shahira,ALL THE BEST 4 e mids!
Duhhh....
for my blog.
haa!...cz it's lyk SO boring now.
i used 2 update it dutifully everyday.
so 2dae is my off day!
bt yeah,i told u im not happy w this week's roster.
n as i've predicted,none o my friends are able 2 go out w me 2dae.
no,i dun blame anyone...*i blame my stupid roster*
...
bt e pay came in!n im ready to SHOP!
bt e pay came in!n im ready to SHOP!
since none o my friends was free today,i went out w my lttle bro
hee...tt's me n him.
we're inside e LRT 2 Punggol Plaza.
walked around n buy junk food n we spent a long long tym inside Videoezy!
finally,we borrowed 3 VCDs.i tot wanna take DVD,bt haa...budjet la.
as u can see,u can alrdy predicted w/ch movie i chose;ofcourse it's The Omen n Gothika.
n i just finished watchin' The Omen just now!
it's great...now how i wished i got e 666 tatoo...
m i kidding?!...i dunno myself.
now,i cant wait 2 borrow e 2nd n 3rd part.
bt damn...all e gore movies i wan 2 watch is all M18.
do i look lyk 18?...i just wanna try n take a M18 cd n bring 2 e counter,bt i dun have e guts yet.
i'll try sumday. soon!:D
shashah,shahira,ALL THE BEST 4 e mids!n Fat!,here's ur pix o e wash area...
it doesnt look horrible in this pix,cz i took it fm e wrong angle ahh...
mui hwee's one e best!u can see e other side,ther's MORE plates n pans.
n ystd talked w sally.both o us agreed tt we tired o tiz job.
tired of the CUSTOMERS mainly...i love tiz job,bt illy customers can drive u fuckin' nuts.
n yeahh,all tiz full shift make me feel lyk a workaholic...a zombie.
sumone w no life.w/ch is sumthin' i dun wan 2 b.no matter how muc money i earn bt im nt happy,den wad's e point rite?
May is here.i think durin' june i'll relax my roster.since it's also june holidays...
n by july,i'll b schooling already!^^
bt den im also nt lookin' 4ward 2 June.cz putri n rossa will b leaving us.
:''((( on 7 june!...i wan send em 2 e Airport!!!
sigh!...will miss miss them so very badly.
since everyday i cum 2 work,ey'll b ther...
hmm...gotta go.wanna research more on The Book Of Revelations.
From the bottom of my heart impure
Friday, May 04, 2007: 9:03 PM
my wish-list
From the bottom of my heart impure
: 8:55 PM
ok...been so guilty for not posting.
see?i dun even haf tym 4 myself...
which is illy depressing.
haa...
yeah...bt hey!ystd i bought e Metal Hammer mag 4 $14.90
lyk woahh,bt i haf e $10 Popular voucher,so weee!!!...
e mag rocks!tt's all i cud sae
i was readin' it fm e moment i came bac home till 10pm to watch Supernatural
ahh...
i didnt even have energy 2 change my clothes.
practically force myself.ate alot n practically on my bed readin' Hammer.
so,e next post will b e pictures i found @ e news sites i went to:
www.grindstone.com
www.alchemygothic.com
www.metalmilitia.co.uk
www.ebtm.com/metalhammer
see?i dun even haf tym 4 myself...
which is illy depressing.
haa...
yeah...bt hey!ystd i bought e Metal Hammer mag 4 $14.90
lyk woahh,bt i haf e $10 Popular voucher,so weee!!!...
e mag rocks!tt's all i cud sae
i was readin' it fm e moment i came bac home till 10pm to watch Supernatural
ahh...
i didnt even have energy 2 change my clothes.
practically force myself.ate alot n practically on my bed readin' Hammer.
so,e next post will b e pictures i found @ e news sites i went to:
www.grindstone.com
www.alchemygothic.com
www.metalmilitia.co.uk
www.ebtm.com/metalhammer
From the bottom of my heart impure
: 8:51 PM
you're my haven,in life & death...
From the bottom of my heart impure
that girl in pajamas.
--emilina allan poe
and more I admire
thy distant fire,
than that colder,
lowly light...
and more I admire
thy distant fire,
than that colder,
lowly light...
Deathwish.
become an astronaut
visit miriam at Germany
migrate
live life live
breath in out
nice grave with manicured grass
heaven.
visit miriam at Germany
migrate
live life live
breath in out
nice grave with manicured grass
heaven.
screams/howls/
shrieks/screeches.
shrieks/screeches.
other grabsteins
farhaANA-banana!<3
BITCH+shahira<<<3TRB
my Calvin!*SHAsha!<<<3
ili!
Hakim!
sally!*~
sunita!*~
syidah!*~
azimah!*~
NAFA Art Teaching YAHOO! GROUP
anis!!!<3*~
jeanie<3*~
nadiah*~
shehana*~
rachel*~
diana*~
sofiah!
haslinda!
mashitah!
haziqah!
shahirah!
Farhan*PAPA!
Azizi!
Mojozal*faisal!
Sabril!
Hazirah!
Saurah!
Shirah!
Khadijah!
Haziqah!
Amalina!
Roliah!
Erdiah!
Syed!
Hasmidah!
Atiqah!
Sufyan!-shuqun
Nora!-zss
BITCH+shahira<<<3TRB
my Calvin!*SHAsha!<<<3
ili!
Hakim!
sally!*~
sunita!*~
syidah!*~
azimah!*~
NAFA Art Teaching YAHOO! GROUP
anis!!!<3*~
jeanie<3*~
nadiah*~
shehana*~
rachel*~
diana*~
sofiah!
haslinda!
mashitah!
haziqah!
shahirah!
Farhan*PAPA!
Azizi!
Mojozal*faisal!
Sabril!
Hazirah!
Saurah!
Shirah!
Khadijah!
Haziqah!
Amalina!
Roliah!
Erdiah!
Syed!
Hasmidah!
Atiqah!
Sufyan!-shuqun
Nora!-zss
memories resurfaced.
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