Sunday, December 30, 2007: 5:17 AM
please give me a chance to make things right.
please hold on to me like i hold on to you
please...
please hold on to me like i hold on to you
please...
From the bottom of my heart impure
Saturday, December 29, 2007: 8:28 AM
hoot hoot...
im a midnight o0Owl.
it 12.30am
im a midnight o0Owl.
it 12.30am
From the bottom of my heart impure
i want to start anew.i want you.
Friday, December 28, 2007: 7:11 PM
Concrete Blonde - Joey
Joey, Baby- Don't get Crazy,
Detours, Fences,
I get Defensive
I know you've heard it all before,
So I dont say it anymore,
I just stand by and let you fight your secret war.
And though I used to wonder why,
I used to cry till I was dry,
Still sometimes I get a strange pain inside.
Oh, Joey, if you're hurtin', so am I.
Joey, Honey
I'll save all my money
All is forgiven.
Listen, listen.
And if I seem to be confused,
I didn't mean to be with you.
And when you said I scared you,
Well, I guess you scared me too.
But we got lucky once before,
And I don't wanna close the door.
And if you're somewhere out there,
and passed out on her floor.
Oh Joey, I'm not angry anymore.
(instrumental break)
And if I seem to be confused,
I didn't mean to be with you.
And when you said I scared you,
Well, I guess you scared me too.
But if it's love you're looking for,
Well, I can give a whole lot more.
And if you're somewhere drunk and
passed out on the floor.
Oh Joey, I'm not angry anymore.
...angry anymore...
...angry anymore...
Joey, Baby- Don't get Crazy,
Detours, Fences,
I get Defensive
I know you've heard it all before,
So I dont say it anymore,
I just stand by and let you fight your secret war.
And though I used to wonder why,
I used to cry till I was dry,
Still sometimes I get a strange pain inside.
Oh, Joey, if you're hurtin', so am I.
Joey, Honey
I'll save all my money
All is forgiven.
Listen, listen.
And if I seem to be confused,
I didn't mean to be with you.
And when you said I scared you,
Well, I guess you scared me too.
But we got lucky once before,
And I don't wanna close the door.
And if you're somewhere out there,
and passed out on her floor.
Oh Joey, I'm not angry anymore.
(instrumental break)
And if I seem to be confused,
I didn't mean to be with you.
And when you said I scared you,
Well, I guess you scared me too.
But if it's love you're looking for,
Well, I can give a whole lot more.
And if you're somewhere drunk and
passed out on the floor.
Oh Joey, I'm not angry anymore.
...angry anymore...
...angry anymore...
-beautiful song-
^^
From the bottom of my heart impure
: 5:02 AM
On my heavy metal Christmas my true love gave to me,
12 silver crosses
11 black mascaras
10 pairs of platforms
9 tattered t-shirts
8 pentagrams
7 leather jackets
6 cans of hairspray
5 skull earrings
4 quarts of Jack
3 studded belts
2 pairs of spandex pants
and a tattoo of Ozzy!
*lol!if i where given a timeframe where i will be born,
i really think that i should be born in the late 70s goin to 80s in america*
''//rockin' out\m/
From the bottom of my heart impure
they died that we might live...
Thursday, December 27, 2007: 4:46 AM
ok...i seldom take pictures when i go out nowadays...
bt im in a sort of bubbly mood...
...so yeah.ther's the pictures.
the wannabes.haha.
wadever.
*i want tt top on the first picture.i regret not buying it :(*
i want you!^^
From the bottom of my heart impure
world domination
Wednesday, December 26, 2007: 6:59 PM
MY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTION
-I WANNA ROCK!-
Twisted Sisters!
1) dye my hair black
2) work harder for my future
3) not to self-loathing myself
4) make everyone i love happy
5)cut my hair short n wave/curl it like my original hair
6) to love myself before i love God
From the bottom of my heart impure
chuck me in the washing machine & put me on 'Super Cleaning'
: 4:05 AM
today went to Queenstown.
it's the 3rd day tt my wallet is lost;still no news.
i lost every hope of ever getting it back.
so i've applied new posb card,
took out almost half of this month's pay;
paid the debts i owe to my parents.
stow the rest in my drawer in case i need it
[which is silly to say tt--of course i need cash!]
borrowed my mum's ez-link b4 i applied for new ones.
yeahh...
i told uma,"well at least we could play at the arcade since i still have my Powercard.haha...my Powercard is so powerful than any credit cards tt's ever made"
she laughed and answer as usual "ur're nuts"
mummy saw it & she asked me what's tt.
i was shocked i should say...
uhnn...haha
back to monday when i lost my wallet.
i guess it was a retribution for being one big silent meanie tt i am.
i open my waddrobe tt afternoon.
take out my jeans & penknife,
& cut at the knee of the jeans.
uma find it amusingly stupid.
my mum gonna throw out tt jeans if she ever gonna see it
[so now i cant stash tt jeans in the washing machine]
i find it...i dunno...
..i mean,i ask myself, "why the hell did i do tt???"
first for cutting it.second for consuming it.third for inhaling it.forth for tt cof-wannabe.
no one will understand what im saying,
but just know,im ashamed for it.
cross my heart im not proud.
on a lighter note.
i amuse myself with thinking of what the police officer was thinking.
'aww..this little angst girl.is she a punk?'
"err...emily the..???--"
"emily the strange wallet.yeah."
retribution.so now im facing it in solemn mood.
I NEED NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!!!
i love Mystery forever!meow meoww!
why is there no one online???
it's the 3rd day tt my wallet is lost;still no news.
i lost every hope of ever getting it back.
so i've applied new posb card,
took out almost half of this month's pay;
paid the debts i owe to my parents.
stow the rest in my drawer in case i need it
[which is silly to say tt--of course i need cash!]
borrowed my mum's ez-link b4 i applied for new ones.
yeahh...
i told uma,"well at least we could play at the arcade since i still have my Powercard.haha...my Powercard is so powerful than any credit cards tt's ever made"
she laughed and answer as usual "ur're nuts"
mummy saw it & she asked me what's tt.
i was shocked i should say...
uhnn...haha
back to monday when i lost my wallet.
i guess it was a retribution for being one big silent meanie tt i am.
i open my waddrobe tt afternoon.
take out my jeans & penknife,
& cut at the knee of the jeans.
uma find it amusingly stupid.
my mum gonna throw out tt jeans if she ever gonna see it
[so now i cant stash tt jeans in the washing machine]
i find it...i dunno...
..i mean,i ask myself, "why the hell did i do tt???"
first for cutting it.second for consuming it.third for inhaling it.forth for tt cof-wannabe.
no one will understand what im saying,
but just know,im ashamed for it.
cross my heart im not proud.
on a lighter note.
i amuse myself with thinking of what the police officer was thinking.
'aww..this little angst girl.is she a punk?'
"err...emily the..???--"
"emily the strange wallet.yeah."
retribution.so now im facing it in solemn mood.
I NEED NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!!!
i love Mystery forever!meow meoww!
why is there no one online???
From the bottom of my heart impure
Sweetblood
Monday, December 24, 2007: 9:58 PM
life couldnt get any worse!
when im smiling myself stupid,
i lost my wallet
& now i cant go out at all.
my mum's naggy & wont give me even a penny.
my right arm feels out of my body;aching
serve me bloody right!
i need help.my life is a BIG mess
im pissed
*curse tt bastard or bitch who find & didnt return my wallet
HAHAHAHAHA!!!
***
6.11pm
now im smiling myself stupid[never ask me why]
though i still havent get back my wallet.
sometimes i just feel like my parents should call the doctors
& have me locked up in a padded room with a straightjacket.
anw,hey,i forgot to wish Merry X'mas.
hehh..i noe it's late.
...i've been reading this book,Sweetblood.
the picture of tt pissed off girl below [so u can imagine my pissed off look just now :P]
& i really LOVE it!!!
the book influence me in so many ways.
like introducing me to 2 new bands;
Sisters Of Mercy & Concrete Blonde.
i've yet to listen to their songs...
& new books like Albert Camun's book The Stranger...
& ofcourse,Anne Rice.
i got to have Anne Rice books.it's like the must-have gothic literature
i chg my bed covers from red to my old dark dark maroon.
hehehh...my room look extra gloomy.
i need to complete it with...
yes.Desmodus rotundus,or the infamous Vampire Bat.
a frozen one ofcourse...to put on my table now...
to late for a christmas list :(
it seems like i've always been missing in a lot of stuff.
like things just zoom passing by me but im still dreaming...
i used to see bats in my old primary school. :)
i've yet to finish Twilight.
>_<
im such a book freak.
see that?
cirque du freakkkkKK
p.s:
she manage to tear some of the walls around her
as her loved once called for her again on the other side...
when im smiling myself stupid,
i lost my wallet
& now i cant go out at all.
my mum's naggy & wont give me even a penny.
my right arm feels out of my body;aching
serve me bloody right!
i need help.my life is a BIG mess
im pissed
*curse tt bastard or bitch who find & didnt return my wallet
HAHAHAHAHA!!!
***
6.11pm
now im smiling myself stupid[never ask me why]
though i still havent get back my wallet.
sometimes i just feel like my parents should call the doctors
& have me locked up in a padded room with a straightjacket.
anw,hey,i forgot to wish Merry X'mas.
hehh..i noe it's late.
...i've been reading this book,Sweetblood.
the picture of tt pissed off girl below [so u can imagine my pissed off look just now :P]
& i really LOVE it!!!
the book influence me in so many ways.
like introducing me to 2 new bands;
Sisters Of Mercy & Concrete Blonde.
i've yet to listen to their songs...
& new books like Albert Camun's book The Stranger...
& ofcourse,Anne Rice.
i got to have Anne Rice books.it's like the must-have gothic literature
i chg my bed covers from red to my old dark dark maroon.
hehehh...my room look extra gloomy.
i need to complete it with...
yes.Desmodus rotundus,or the infamous Vampire Bat.
a frozen one ofcourse...to put on my table now...
to late for a christmas list :(
it seems like i've always been missing in a lot of stuff.
like things just zoom passing by me but im still dreaming...
i used to see bats in my old primary school. :)
i've yet to finish Twilight.
>_<
im such a book freak.
see that?
cirque du freakkkkKK
p.s:
she manage to tear some of the walls around her
as her loved once called for her again on the other side...
From the bottom of my heart impure
Sunday, December 23, 2007: 4:36 AM
wow wow wow...i think this gonna be a long post...
hmmm...
ok2...my mood swing is really up the scale this week[prob bcz of my prd]
anw...im feeling better! :D * i think*
actually quite a lot of things happening.
like 2 weeks ago was Kak Aishah's birthday
& my family celebrated at Seoul Garden for lunch.
i stuffed till i still feel full to eat dinner.
^^ i ate tom yam with a dozen kind of things inside...
than i took a bunch of chicken meat.
from spicy to curry to coffee marinated meat.
wo0hhss!..den i went up again to eat spaggethi.
& again!one more round of the meat.
i like bbq-ing it myself.
i like really cooked stuff so some are abit charred cz i cooked it too long.
i ended the feasting with a bowl of ice kacang & icecream.
oh!plus i had 2 glasses of drinks;peach tea & coke.
now who says i cant eat a lot???
hmmphf!haha...
went to ikea with Saintz & i bought a photo frame
think it's in A2 size.well,it's a bit smaller.
it's purplish-pink!to go with my red wall.
anw,gotta print pictures asap!gotta do a collarge out of it!
well,aftt my life kinda like a blur-ish video...
all thanks to my teenage girlish hormones plus my own self realisation plus a friend.
uhnn..haha?
i went to johor ystd to meet my aunt for aidiladha.
den we went to Jusko since my dad jz gt his pay >_<
ther's a whole lot of sale.Mango stuff all half-price.
same with S'pore.
so i found a shoe!rm185 but less till RM90.
woo...*to myself*
& den my sis wan treat the whle family[e 5 of us] to a movie!!!
so...we watched I Am Legend
i know...m'sia relase date is earlier den s'pore!
to words for tt movie:Freaking Awesome
if u like Resident Evil,u'll like this.
though the movie is really depressing[i felt so depressed watching it]
i love depressing movies
& today my mum need to buy sch uniforms for my bro
so we went to ochard[with sis]
goddamn it's so crowded.
& i bought Stephenie Meyer[top pic] book Twilight!
awwww!!!damn.have been wanting this book!
Miriam will be delighted to know tt i have this book.
schedule gonna be tight[i think]
thurs got a date with far,uma,ili n hakim[hopefully it's confirmed]
^^
i bought canvas paper today.
i really feel like painting all of a sudden.
paint wad?anything...mayb
anything tt come through this crazy brain God had given me;
well,at least i have a brain;thank God.
or im locking myself away in my room,
on my bed eating lasagna,
reading about vampires & blood all day.
my life's pretty much wasted.
i know.
i dont really care...
well,this few days when my mood is really sickly blue,
i realised tt thinking happy thoughts can really make up ur day.
instead of being grumpy all the time.
so..im gonna smile myself stupid from now on
* i told whoever it may be reading this junk tt it's a long post.so Get Lost.it ends here*
From the bottom of my heart impure
Friday, December 21, 2007: 5:57 PM
u know...it's strange
how a red brick wall seperates to person apart.
it's when the heart no longer connects to each other
than the red brick wall starts to build slowly upwards.
it's the same.
when the wall had build to the point where they could no longer see each other
the connection breaks.
unless the person or both person on each wall wants to make it right once more; than they'll tear the red brick wall down.
now she and the people who knew her is building a wall all around
but it's a mistake,because u really need someone.
anyone.
so she banged her fist on the red brick walls...
but it's hard & frozen.
she slammed her fist till she see red red red.
nothing but red
than there's the stray of light through a tiny hole.
which alarms her,but she quickly breath through it.
even a tiny hole can at least give her a ray of life.
it's raudhah's a year death anniversary
how a red brick wall seperates to person apart.
it's when the heart no longer connects to each other
than the red brick wall starts to build slowly upwards.
it's the same.
when the wall had build to the point where they could no longer see each other
the connection breaks.
unless the person or both person on each wall wants to make it right once more; than they'll tear the red brick wall down.
now she and the people who knew her is building a wall all around
but it's a mistake,because u really need someone.
anyone.
so she banged her fist on the red brick walls...
but it's hard & frozen.
she slammed her fist till she see red red red.
nothing but red
than there's the stray of light through a tiny hole.
which alarms her,but she quickly breath through it.
even a tiny hole can at least give her a ray of life.
it's raudhah's a year death anniversary
From the bottom of my heart impure
Thursday, December 20, 2007: 6:46 PM
i still see red...
but now there's white crystals forming
interwining with the red
creating red ruby;a birthstone
but it falls from my grasp
And broke on the white tiled floors
staining it.
-emilina allan poe
hmm...talking about pouring your heart out.
but now there's white crystals forming
interwining with the red
creating red ruby;a birthstone
but it falls from my grasp
And broke on the white tiled floors
staining it.
-emilina allan poe
hmm...talking about pouring your heart out.
From the bottom of my heart impure
Wednesday, December 19, 2007: 3:28 AM
today got me thinking so hard tt my head hurts.
well,to start with.i receive my nafa results.
i got all C[60-69marks] & Hist of VA & NIE B[70-79]
well..i did pass!thank god.
but i need to do better..
cz i wish to skip the 5yrs bond & study overseas b4 taking the 5yrs course.
it's seems impossible,bt mayb if i work really hard,i could get a scholarship...
hmmm...it wont be easy... :(
uma got wore her new boots today!nice
met my parents at CP & they wanted to go to the mosque to see the lambs.
i joined.so ther's the lamb on top.
one lamb kept looking at me
bt o0hhh!!the smell.
& i just ate burger king with uma just now.
i spit out the feeling of nauseousness on the grass.
i didnt enter the mosque though my mum gave me a headscarf;
i was stubborn.i feel...i dunno...not so close to god...
& it's like i dont even care...
wth is wrong with me?
i believe in the faith tt i was borned with,i dun deny tt.
went to Changi beach.been going ther for so many years
my parents love tt place so they bring me there sometimes.
so i'll just sit on the bench...or my feet will take me to the swings or climb that big tree.
yes...i think im the oldest girl who could really swing very high
i could beat all the little brats-haha...
wadever.the tide is high
& water splashed as though its trying to gobble me up for all the things i've done.
so im thinking about a whole lot of stuff
hey...i could think all the way to Pluto...
well,so u could really see pluto from Changi beach says the monument.
& i learn this,with just reading the information once.that;
Pluto or also Hades is the furthest planet from the sun
& it's core is melted ice made from methane n nitrogen oxide & some other gases.
it's called Hades,means after Roman mythology for god of disaster[if im nt wrong]
it's called tt as pluto is the darkest & coldest planet.
a spacecraft is already on the way to Pluto but it would only reach in mid 2015.
[yeah!freaking 2015!?so u could imagine how FAR it is]
& it got me thinking...about God.
i feel tt even freethinkers will turn to God in times when they need someone more than anything...
wadever God they believe in.
my sis's nagging to use the internet.
damn for not having wireless connection.
From the bottom of my heart impure
Tuesday, December 18, 2007: 6:39 PM
everything is red to me
i see red in my eyes
& in my mind...
i see red on my arms
i see red on my fingers
i see red on my face
than i feel red in my mouth
so i see red in the sink
don't freak out!
it's just a joke u guys!
haha...hmm...
was quite excited when i read about the skateboarding class..
www.skateboarding.sg
i mean,emily loves skateboarding
it's just awesome to go over railings n ramps.
get hurt n bruises;tt i dont give such a damn...
plus i know skating but don't know skateboarding.
such a bummer.
my bro do have a skateboard bt for god's sake i suck at it
so i give up.
bt will mama give me the consent?
god.im meant for the flies...
tmr is aidiladha.
the sacrificial day.
i got to shop b4 christmas sales ends.
mama says at Jusko,Johor,ther's 50% discount at Mango.
damn!tt's awesome!i wanna go!
well,got to get ready soon.
"Photographic Memory" Emilie Autumn
You're not so far away
Your sitting in the space between the night and day
And so I'll wait for the sound of your footsteps
The tea that's brewed too strong
The part of me that's waited patiently for oh so long
At least I try
But I'm relying
On my photographic memory
While painfully realizing
It's not all that it's cracked up to be
And falling's just another way to fly
I wonder why it's never easier than
The first time
i see red in my eyes
& in my mind...
i see red on my arms
i see red on my fingers
i see red on my face
than i feel red in my mouth
so i see red in the sink
don't freak out!
it's just a joke u guys!
haha...hmm...
was quite excited when i read about the skateboarding class..
www.skateboarding.sg
i mean,emily loves skateboarding
it's just awesome to go over railings n ramps.
get hurt n bruises;tt i dont give such a damn...
plus i know skating but don't know skateboarding.
such a bummer.
my bro do have a skateboard bt for god's sake i suck at it
so i give up.
bt will mama give me the consent?
god.im meant for the flies...
tmr is aidiladha.
the sacrificial day.
i got to shop b4 christmas sales ends.
mama says at Jusko,Johor,ther's 50% discount at Mango.
damn!tt's awesome!i wanna go!
well,got to get ready soon.
"Photographic Memory" Emilie Autumn
You're not so far away
Your sitting in the space between the night and day
And so I'll wait for the sound of your footsteps
The tea that's brewed too strong
The part of me that's waited patiently for oh so long
At least I try
But I'm relying
On my photographic memory
While painfully realizing
It's not all that it's cracked up to be
And falling's just another way to fly
I wonder why it's never easier than
The first time
From the bottom of my heart impure
Monday, December 17, 2007: 5:03 AM
pictures post:
im more of a mystery ^^
& o0h..i really need to visit a comic book store
cz i NEED & HAVE to have the Umbrella Academy comic books!!!
super lazy to blog about anything else now...m hanging around Dark Horse comics myspace...
***
new post:anis started me thinking after her post of her world map &...
good fuck!!!guess wad?!i dwld google earth.a software Mr Lee showed us last year in hist class..the whole world[even the outer space] is in my hands now!
muahahah!
WORLD DOMINATION!!!
i obey you that u bow to me now!
haha...well,u know im just crazy...
anw!i cant believe im flying from stinky singapore[ops!haha] to new jersey to paris to germany!!!
cant wait to watch the Omen 3 i borrowed ystd.
& shit!ther's Omen 4:the awakening!
thought tt i would have finished the series...
duuhhh...
think i'll start doing the outer space map of stars & planets now...
actually i've always like to draw maps when i was young,
lt alone an outer space map of stars n milky way??!
im doubly excited
From the bottom of my heart impure
Friday, December 14, 2007: 7:43 PM
it's really true tt gerard is married!
the wife is Lyn Z,bassist frm Mindless Self Indulgence
disappointed?
am not la!wth?haha
mayb a little[haha]wth?
duhhh
cz he used to be a gr8 influence in my life;in LIFE,music n art
hey,he dont know me bt im greatful for what he had thought me
bt it's like...u dun noe whether ur're living in reality or ur own fantasy.
bt i've woke up fm tt fantasy of mine since beginning of this year.
& im so happy now,cz god send me this dude below to rock my life
*chuckles*
From the bottom of my heart impure
Thursday, December 13, 2007: 9:48 PM
cancer
most amazing kisser very high appeal love is one of a kind very romantic most caring person you'll ever meet entirely creative extremely random and proud of it freak spontaneous great at telling stories not a fighter but will fight if pushed over limit someone you should hold on to.
well am i all of the above?someone tell me
:) today gonna accompany dear mum go out with her...
u know...being a mum quite sux.especially if ur children had all grown up & ur a housewife.
u want to go out,but ur other friends have their own families to attend to.
so the only thing is to just have the same routine everyday.
cook n clean cook n clean.
it's very lonely.sacrifice.
8.50pm
am back!& m i nuts?bt try listen to this songs...
nur nilam sari
sandarkan pada kenangan
most amazing kisser very high appeal love is one of a kind very romantic most caring person you'll ever meet entirely creative extremely random and proud of it freak spontaneous great at telling stories not a fighter but will fight if pushed over limit someone you should hold on to.
well am i all of the above?someone tell me
:) today gonna accompany dear mum go out with her...
u know...being a mum quite sux.especially if ur children had all grown up & ur a housewife.
u want to go out,but ur other friends have their own families to attend to.
so the only thing is to just have the same routine everyday.
cook n clean cook n clean.
it's very lonely.sacrifice.
8.50pm
am back!& m i nuts?bt try listen to this songs...
nur nilam sari
sandarkan pada kenangan
From the bottom of my heart impure
Wednesday, December 12, 2007: 6:47 PM
Desert Song (Demo) Lyrics
*the cure to any bitterness in my heart*
We hold in our hearts the sword and the faith
Swelled up from the rain, clouds move like a wraith
Well after all, we'll lie another day
And through it all, we'll find some other way
To carry on through cartilage and fluid
And did you come to stare or wash away the blood?
Well tonight, well tonight
Will it ever come?
Spend the rest of your days rocking out
Just for the dead
Well tonight
Will it ever come?
I can see you awake anytime, in my head
Did we all fall down?
Did we all fall down?
Did we all fall down?
Did we all fall down?
From the lights to the pavement
From the van to the floor
From backstage to the doctor
From the Earth to the morgue, morgue, morgue, morgue
Well tonight
Will it ever come?
Spend the rest of your days rocking out
Just for the dead
Well tonight
Will it ever come?
I can see you awake anytime in my head
All fall down
Well after all...
me & uma :P
We hold in our hearts the sword and the faith
Swelled up from the rain, clouds move like a wraith
Well after all, we'll lie another day
And through it all, we'll find some other way
To carry on through cartilage and fluid
And did you come to stare or wash away the blood?
Well tonight, well tonight
Will it ever come?
Spend the rest of your days rocking out
Just for the dead
Well tonight
Will it ever come?
I can see you awake anytime, in my head
Did we all fall down?
Did we all fall down?
Did we all fall down?
Did we all fall down?
From the lights to the pavement
From the van to the floor
From backstage to the doctor
From the Earth to the morgue, morgue, morgue, morgue
Well tonight
Will it ever come?
Spend the rest of your days rocking out
Just for the dead
Well tonight
Will it ever come?
I can see you awake anytime in my head
All fall down
Well after all...
me & uma :P
max pavillion-cancer
max pavillion-helena
From the bottom of my heart impure
: 3:44 AM
now she knows what it feels like to be in estacy.
flashes of bright lights spin in & out of her eyes
everyone's screaming the hell out of them but she
can only hear the thumping of her heart
working up a good sweat & her head's pounding
but there's that hands around her to always be there.
a dream withing a dream...
***well,the funny thing about ystd was
1)the long hair girl tt got carried and she were like a ragged doll swinging her head around as gerard screams.
2)the little girls who was infrnt of the pit but give up and started pushing themselves to the back;
their faces pale & sweaty of the mad push
a tragic affair indeed.hope they'll come again
i will get the pictures fm syg's fren,ray,soon :)
flashes of bright lights spin in & out of her eyes
everyone's screaming the hell out of them but she
can only hear the thumping of her heart
working up a good sweat & her head's pounding
but there's that hands around her to always be there.
a dream withing a dream...
***well,the funny thing about ystd was
1)the long hair girl tt got carried and she were like a ragged doll swinging her head around as gerard screams.
2)the little girls who was infrnt of the pit but give up and started pushing themselves to the back;
their faces pale & sweaty of the mad push
a tragic affair indeed.hope they'll come again
i will get the pictures fm syg's fren,ray,soon :)
the ones on top is from mcr buzznet.
they're ystd's one.
they're ystd's one.
From the bottom of my heart impure
Monday, December 10, 2007: 8:35 PM
brrr...it's so cold today.
i mean,it's been cold for the whole week.
no complains.i rather the weather be raining n cold rather than blazing hot.
hope u recover fast syg!...haisss...
i seriously had a sleeping disorder,strangely,during the holidays.
sch term i wud usually crash right into bed.
bt now i have to toss n turned in my bed for 3 hours!
its really frustrating.
im sick of the ceilling & the wall tt i've been staring ad all night.
i think i have to paste posters or -haha- a plasma tv overhead so i cud jz look up n never lie bored in the darkness.
or i hope someone cud shoot my head brain dead
bt den of course,a miracle wud take me to wake up in the morning...
think will go back to sch this week for the assignment.
blah!
From the bottom of my heart impure
: 4:20 AM
*screams*
*screams*
*screams*
meeting syg tmr!it's been almost a week...
hmmm...listening to ur voice!ahh..
:D &.....omg!
omg.jz freakin excited.
wayyyy too excited i cud pee.
anis say she cud puke back her dinner.
i cud just jump out my bedroom 13th storey window
seriously.
i could do jz tt.
bt dun worry,i will nt smack the ground.
ther's enuf butterflies in my stomach to hold me up like Adam Sandler in "little nicky"
From the bottom of my heart impure
Saturday, December 08, 2007: 6:25 PM
im online in the morning!...
was looking forward to an email like an early christmas present bt stupid hotmail had something wrong with it....
or my email's been spam???god no!..
:( will try again ltr...
was looking forward to an email like an early christmas present bt stupid hotmail had something wrong with it....
or my email's been spam???god no!..
:( will try again ltr...
so anis told me to watch the kl video of mcr...
god!the girls r just dumb...
ok2...IF i we're there.pls god,dun let me lose it.
hee....gerard's hair black. ^^
my favorite gothic girl!!!
^^ emilie autumn!
o0h...she so sexy!
the new song i put is acutally the soundtrack for the movie Saw2!
From the bottom of my heart impure
: 4:24 AM
finally!!!i love my new blogskin!been working on it since ystd...
urghh...
i finally found the perfect picture,the girl with the drums.
it really feel like me!
i mean,if u see the animated drawing of my imaginary self & tt girl;
it's quite similar...
...& the first time i sat on a drum set when i was a percussionist,
i was also like "wtf?...how do i drum?"
anw,i welcome the black parade...
can i go can i go???
arrgghhhh!!!...
u know...every individual will feel tt a particular song was like written out for him/her....
ther's just this kind of feeling tt u'll never be ever sick of the song.
& tt the song will always touch u deep in ur heart tt anyone hardly see.
well,tt's how i feel towards Helena ^^
forever helena...
i know it's shitty to this kind of touchy.
bt helena is made for emilina!
weeeeeeeee!........
From the bottom of my heart impure
Friday, December 07, 2007: 3:54 AM
:'(cant wait for tuesday to come
fiuhh...my heart feels so heavy.
wish the days will breeze like the wind.
been gluing my face to this screen for so many hours watching Family Guy.
Stewie is just the kind of baby i would like to have.
^^
i wonder when anis would be back?
hehe ^^ i miss her!
mr tan send an assignment via email[well,he miss me out!]
dunch noe y....is it bcz he wanna sue me cz of my email add???
the 666 part?...hmm...
hey ho!im getting better in photoshop now.
no no helps.i practically clicked on everything & explore myself.
so i chged my blogskin!^^
n the word Graibstein[german] meant gravestone
& necropolis is another word for cemetery
dont ask me why i name names like tt
From the bottom of my heart impure
Tuesday, December 04, 2007: 11:12 PM
guess im still using the damn PC!& now it's in my living room so everyone in the living room can see what ur're doing on the com...[bt ther's no one ard me now] i mean,my room's computer table is brought outside to the living room,& my sis's ikea table was brought inside my room for my laptop.the great thing is,finally i have a 'real' place to do my work.[cz last time im living off the keyboard space]the laptop's in my room cz my sis nt yet give me the singnet password.grrrrrRR!!which gives me the reason to type in one paragraph instead of the usual spaces cz im darn pissed.she promised to help me tonight.she better do.i want to breath in back the money i invest on tt laptop.
haha
ystd went to nadia's bthdae chalet at costa sand pasir ris.
the pictures will b posted *when!my laptop's internet connection can work...
& i've YET to buy tickets..
what's wrong with me?i burnt my toast 3 times in a row
*there's more deeper meaning in it*
haha
ystd went to nadia's bthdae chalet at costa sand pasir ris.
the pictures will b posted *when!my laptop's internet connection can work...
& i've YET to buy tickets..
what's wrong with me?i burnt my toast 3 times in a row
*there's more deeper meaning in it*
From the bottom of my heart impure
Monday, December 03, 2007: 1:46 AM
hey ho!
ever wondered why u feel life sometimes is 6 feet under the ground
& another moment your above everyone's head?
i've got no idea myself.
bt...all i noe is i bought VAIO laptop yesterday!
weee...[for it]
wuaaa...[for my bank] feel a big pinch in my butt,really.
today went to parkway with syg
to upgrade but the dumb harvey norman says tt the stock not yet come.
it will come on wednesday.she told me to call them first.
really sucky.was a little down-spirited
but den he bought for us Auntie Anne's pretzel & slacked ad starbucks[o0h!i bought frappucino javachip]
^^ & was really cheered & he helped me do the wireless connection
so we cud watch hard Gay [lol!] & Ares & a few anti-virus software
really superr happy!
thx so much for everything...
[so much for the 22nd century high-tech girl]HAHA!
e picture below we took using the webcam & den i "sort of" "edited" it using photoshop.
the reason with the ".." is bcz i really not sure how to use photoshop.
such a dumb-ass monkey!
it seems tt my eye bags r more worse den it already is!
*chuckle*
btw,im still blogging using my PC,not yet chg all the bunch of wires yet.
ever wondered why u feel life sometimes is 6 feet under the ground
& another moment your above everyone's head?
i've got no idea myself.
bt...all i noe is i bought VAIO laptop yesterday!
weee...[for it]
wuaaa...[for my bank] feel a big pinch in my butt,really.
today went to parkway with syg
to upgrade but the dumb harvey norman says tt the stock not yet come.
it will come on wednesday.she told me to call them first.
really sucky.was a little down-spirited
but den he bought for us Auntie Anne's pretzel & slacked ad starbucks[o0h!i bought frappucino javachip]
^^ & was really cheered & he helped me do the wireless connection
so we cud watch hard Gay [lol!] & Ares & a few anti-virus software
really superr happy!
thx so much for everything...
[so much for the 22nd century high-tech girl]HAHA!
e picture below we took using the webcam & den i "sort of" "edited" it using photoshop.
the reason with the ".." is bcz i really not sure how to use photoshop.
such a dumb-ass monkey!
it seems tt my eye bags r more worse den it already is!
*chuckle*
btw,im still blogging using my PC,not yet chg all the bunch of wires yet.
adios!get lost!
p.sssCREAM:happy birthday to ANIS who's suntanning at Bali hot beach now,maybe among hot ang moh guys! ^^ heheee!
u guys can check out ana banana's bloggy i helped her make the other day she come to my house when i totally lost my voice!have to talk to her through "notepad" lol.
From the bottom of my heart impure
that girl in pajamas.
--emilina allan poe
and more I admire
thy distant fire,
than that colder,
lowly light...
and more I admire
thy distant fire,
than that colder,
lowly light...
Deathwish.
become an astronaut
visit miriam at Germany
migrate
live life live
breath in out
nice grave with manicured grass
heaven.
visit miriam at Germany
migrate
live life live
breath in out
nice grave with manicured grass
heaven.
screams/howls/
shrieks/screeches.
shrieks/screeches.
other grabsteins
farhaANA-banana!<3
BITCH+shahira<<<3TRB
my Calvin!*SHAsha!<<<3
ili!
Hakim!
sally!*~
sunita!*~
syidah!*~
azimah!*~
NAFA Art Teaching YAHOO! GROUP
anis!!!<3*~
jeanie<3*~
nadiah*~
shehana*~
rachel*~
diana*~
sofiah!
haslinda!
mashitah!
haziqah!
shahirah!
Farhan*PAPA!
Azizi!
Mojozal*faisal!
Sabril!
Hazirah!
Saurah!
Shirah!
Khadijah!
Haziqah!
Amalina!
Roliah!
Erdiah!
Syed!
Hasmidah!
Atiqah!
Sufyan!-shuqun
Nora!-zss
BITCH+shahira<<<3TRB
my Calvin!*SHAsha!<<<3
ili!
Hakim!
sally!*~
sunita!*~
syidah!*~
azimah!*~
NAFA Art Teaching YAHOO! GROUP
anis!!!<3*~
jeanie<3*~
nadiah*~
shehana*~
rachel*~
diana*~
sofiah!
haslinda!
mashitah!
haziqah!
shahirah!
Farhan*PAPA!
Azizi!
Mojozal*faisal!
Sabril!
Hazirah!
Saurah!
Shirah!
Khadijah!
Haziqah!
Amalina!
Roliah!
Erdiah!
Syed!
Hasmidah!
Atiqah!
Sufyan!-shuqun
Nora!-zss
memories resurfaced.
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